12-23-2018, 11:11 PM
I noticed something interesting today. My thinking was pretty negative at times today. This is because we’re back in financial trouble, and we shouldn’t be. I have some of the same patterns of thinking that I was having while I was going through this late last year and there is some added anger at the wife in there. The thing is, the words are going through my head but I’m not having nearly the fear anxiety borderline panic feeling that they used to have. That’s not to say that there’s NO feeling associated, it’s just a lot more muted. I also had periods of very positive thinking today, and those did produce strong feelings and imaginary experiences. I used th try like hell to force that to happen and it didn’t. Now it seems perfectly natural. This is exactly the opposite of the way it used to be.
