Today I got more Effects that you would expect from DAMSI, and one of the situations was a really weird scene now that I think about it. My wife and I were meeting the lady whose doing our marriage counseling at a restaurant, and we’d been talking about something off topic and I was telling a story where a waitress had poured coffee on me because I’d said something that she’d misinterpreted. Namely that I liked her tats (she had some really nice ink on her arm, and I was the king of putting my foot in my mouth when I was younger). Our waitress (mid thirties and cute) made sure to mention that she’d heard part of that. I told her the story and she said something like “I’d just say thanks, these are all me”. She turned in profile and arched her back so I got a really good look. There was some more, but I don’t remember it precisely. I may be out of practice, but I reciognize when a woman is blatantly hitting on me. Now,the weird part is that my wife was sitting right next to me. Neither my wife nor the counselor reacted at all. I would have expected my wife to either make a smart ass comment or be mad depending on her mood, but nothing. Note that under different circumstances, I could have done something about it and it wouldn’t have been out of bounds. None of this is even in the neighborhood of normal.
Then this evening I was talking to a female friend (probably my longest running human relationship who I’m not blood related to) who I used to hook up with occasionally in high school and college. She was asking me for info on a relatively serious matter, but broke off the conversation by saying that she was naked and in bed. Also not normal. Too bad she lives halfway across the country. During my Saturday nap, I had a sex dream. It’s been quite a while since I’ve had one, or at least remembered it. I notice a theme here, but I have no idea why.
I really don’t get this, my conscious goals all involve money and career right now. If this was what I was going for, I’d be running DAMSI. I own it, but it’s going to have to wait until I get my financial and professional life squared away.
I continue to feel the optimistic high on life feeling. It’s a calmer version than on previous versions, but more consistent. The temporary solution to our financial problems didn’t work out, but I didn’t feel bad or stressed for more than a couple of hours. I came up with three other plans, one of which I am sure will work. I’ve got this, whatever “this” ends up being.
Other than that, I’m looking forward to being done with my three mints on USLM3 about the time USLM4 comes out.
Then this evening I was talking to a female friend (probably my longest running human relationship who I’m not blood related to) who I used to hook up with occasionally in high school and college. She was asking me for info on a relatively serious matter, but broke off the conversation by saying that she was naked and in bed. Also not normal. Too bad she lives halfway across the country. During my Saturday nap, I had a sex dream. It’s been quite a while since I’ve had one, or at least remembered it. I notice a theme here, but I have no idea why.
I really don’t get this, my conscious goals all involve money and career right now. If this was what I was going for, I’d be running DAMSI. I own it, but it’s going to have to wait until I get my financial and professional life squared away.
I continue to feel the optimistic high on life feeling. It’s a calmer version than on previous versions, but more consistent. The temporary solution to our financial problems didn’t work out, but I didn’t feel bad or stressed for more than a couple of hours. I came up with three other plans, one of which I am sure will work. I’ve got this, whatever “this” ends up being.
Other than that, I’m looking forward to being done with my three mints on USLM3 about the time USLM4 comes out.
