12-20-2018, 04:28 PM
Day 55
Still going with E2 every night and sometimes a little during the day. Not sure what to write but it feels like every night all I do is constantly dream. Lately, a lot of those dreams have been sexual and some have been disturbing. But mostly now they're dreams that I barely remember anymore, or sometimes I wake up feeling like I have a deep understanding or huge insight from a dream, but to recall the dream through conscious description could not describe the deep level in which it affected me. It seems like each night my beliefs of myself and my values are constantly being reshuffled in my head, then during the daytime, I need to catch up to these changing thoughts within the conscious mind, and find a path to living a better, more peaceful life.
I put some thought into it today, so I came here to do a write-up. I have noticed an improvement in my anxiety levels, and I feel far less fear of being judged by others. I think progress is happening on a very deep level and I think this is why it feels slow at times. I am happy to have purchased E2 though, it's definitely been a step up from E1, but sometimes I do wish it would kick my ass a little bit harder as E1 did at times. But as they say, slow progress is good progress.
Still going with E2 every night and sometimes a little during the day. Not sure what to write but it feels like every night all I do is constantly dream. Lately, a lot of those dreams have been sexual and some have been disturbing. But mostly now they're dreams that I barely remember anymore, or sometimes I wake up feeling like I have a deep understanding or huge insight from a dream, but to recall the dream through conscious description could not describe the deep level in which it affected me. It seems like each night my beliefs of myself and my values are constantly being reshuffled in my head, then during the daytime, I need to catch up to these changing thoughts within the conscious mind, and find a path to living a better, more peaceful life.
I put some thought into it today, so I came here to do a write-up. I have noticed an improvement in my anxiety levels, and I feel far less fear of being judged by others. I think progress is happening on a very deep level and I think this is why it feels slow at times. I am happy to have purchased E2 though, it's definitely been a step up from E1, but sometimes I do wish it would kick my ass a little bit harder as E1 did at times. But as they say, slow progress is good progress.
