I know I havnt updated this journal for a while but I will soon. Actually I am Journaling offline. Still here a little update on what's happening in my life.
So, on Sunday my Dad and I went to the "Electrical Substation". We met the "SSO" (Sub-Station Operator). After a little chat he gave me a tour of the substation and explained everything in a simple manner and he has few years of experience so he knows most of the stuff. I told him I am gonna start coming from Monday regularly to learn everything under his supervision.
But Idk what happened just thinking about that I will be spending minimum 2-3 hours in a place where I don't know anyone and that I might embarrass or look like a fool if I asked anything stupid. I don't even know where this fear came out all of a sudden.
Its Tuesday night right now and for past two days I am making excuses just so that I can avoid going there. Few days ago I was dying to go there and didn't care what others would think of me or even if I looked stupid but now Idk what the fuck happened.
I know it all.comes down to self-esteem and confidence. Damn it!! I really need to get past this fear of I want to move forward in life.
I am going there tomorrow and will see what happens. I will visualise before going there and see if everything turns out fine..
So, on Sunday my Dad and I went to the "Electrical Substation". We met the "SSO" (Sub-Station Operator). After a little chat he gave me a tour of the substation and explained everything in a simple manner and he has few years of experience so he knows most of the stuff. I told him I am gonna start coming from Monday regularly to learn everything under his supervision.
But Idk what happened just thinking about that I will be spending minimum 2-3 hours in a place where I don't know anyone and that I might embarrass or look like a fool if I asked anything stupid. I don't even know where this fear came out all of a sudden.
Its Tuesday night right now and for past two days I am making excuses just so that I can avoid going there. Few days ago I was dying to go there and didn't care what others would think of me or even if I looked stupid but now Idk what the fuck happened.
I know it all.comes down to self-esteem and confidence. Damn it!! I really need to get past this fear of I want to move forward in life.
I am going there tomorrow and will see what happens. I will visualise before going there and see if everything turns out fine..
