I have had the feeling last weeks that I really miss having real friends. You know people you can really trust, who you feel at home with. And yesterday a guy who I have hanged out with some, and I have had a feeling that "there is something here" in terms of friendship, under the surface but I haven't really been able to reach it, asked if I wanted to hang out with him and his friend who is a girl, who I have met one time before and had fun with. We had an amazing evening, and in some way the moment I met them in the cab I really felt "this is friends" - in a more real sense than I have felt with people before.
I'm really happy about this. I don't think that I have had a friendship with someone I could trust 100 % before, I have had one really close friend who I was and am close with and maybe my work on myself can improve also our friendship, but this was just really nice.
I also had the experience of people really looking at me in a way like...hm, I don't know, like I am special or something. Not like sexual attraction but like interested attraction or what you should say. I think that I am starting to become who I really have been underneath all my toxic emotions and insecurities and are starting to be comfortable enough with my energies to let them radiate, and this is what causing this. I feel more authentic also. Less reactive. More honest in some way. Willing to take on life in an authentic way, not cutting corners and taking shortcuts but following my own intuition for better or worse, as long I stay honest with myself.
I'm really happy about this. I don't think that I have had a friendship with someone I could trust 100 % before, I have had one really close friend who I was and am close with and maybe my work on myself can improve also our friendship, but this was just really nice.
I also had the experience of people really looking at me in a way like...hm, I don't know, like I am special or something. Not like sexual attraction but like interested attraction or what you should say. I think that I am starting to become who I really have been underneath all my toxic emotions and insecurities and are starting to be comfortable enough with my energies to let them radiate, and this is what causing this. I feel more authentic also. Less reactive. More honest in some way. Willing to take on life in an authentic way, not cutting corners and taking shortcuts but following my own intuition for better or worse, as long I stay honest with myself.
