12-14-2018, 02:15 PM
For me, my depression (if you want to use that word) manifests as heaviness and pain in my chest, centered on my heart but taking up the entire ribcage. When I'm really in a bad space it can get up to 7/10 but this morning it was 3ish/10. It's both physical and emotional pain at the same time, and if I had to label it with words, it would be "self hatred" or "worthlessness". On better days, I feel great and light, but sometimes when my body or mind decides that it wants to be in pain, these symptoms of my depression show up. I can fight it with conscious effort, and so what happens is that during sleep my conscious mind is off-duty and I wake with the pain in my chest. During the day I get calmer and the pain recedes. At night I go to sleep, and again I wake up with the pain. Repeat.
That pain-in-my-chest feeling was flaring up intensely around Thanksgiving and that's when I started using USLM3. The intention was to try to target the FRM at the pain by being clever, and it kinda helped for two cycles, but after a while the pain just was coming back despite the USLM. Then you released DMSI3.3, and the product description page had:
That's why I jumped into DMSI, because it seemed like a better bet. The FRM is there to remove fear in the way of achieving the goals, and if a goal of DMSI is to build self-worth and self-love, then it seemed a more reliable approach than trying to aim the FRM in USLM by tricky goal selection.
That is quite a bit of a wall of text. I'll pause here; if you have any questions I'm happy to answer them. I have my theories about where this pain-in-my-chest came from as well.
That pain-in-my-chest feeling was flaring up intensely around Thanksgiving and that's when I started using USLM3. The intention was to try to target the FRM at the pain by being clever, and it kinda helped for two cycles, but after a while the pain just was coming back despite the USLM. Then you released DMSI3.3, and the product description page had:
Quote:Goal #2: To support goal #1, we have to develop, enhance and improve your self esteem, self respect, sense of self worth, self liking, self love, self validation, self support, self confidence, self image, feelings of deservingness and overcome fear and so forth.
That's why I jumped into DMSI, because it seemed like a better bet. The FRM is there to remove fear in the way of achieving the goals, and if a goal of DMSI is to build self-worth and self-love, then it seemed a more reliable approach than trying to aim the FRM in USLM by tricky goal selection.
That is quite a bit of a wall of text. I'll pause here; if you have any questions I'm happy to answer them. I have my theories about where this pain-in-my-chest came from as well.
I share the details of my life in my posts to help in the understanding of the effects of the subliminals I use. I am only open to advice that relates to the use of the subliminals.
