12-08-2018, 06:37 AM
(This post was last modified: 12-08-2018, 09:08 PM by Shadow2200.)
Day 2 DMSI 3,3 D Hybrid
(Mourning)
Woke still thinking about fight with dancer. So against my better judgements sent her a long text about it. Laying out how I felt as well telling her I wanted to speak d more time with her and she,s my primary at least for now. Although I did let her know regardless of what happens I'll be good. Both of us are in transition now. Although it was a time when we both used to be closer. Id have a urge to look at some porn, but resisted the urge to do so as it would,t of helped. Latter that mourning was doing an interview for a new job the girl was doing it a young early 20's girl seemed a bit intimidated to the fact i just had strong eye contact with her. Maybe nothing could be my imagination. I was reading the sniper might affect people through a picture of them. So i put up a pic of dancer on my computer from a while back. i wonder if it will have any effects.
(afternoon)
Pulsar on phone playlist only got 4 loops and not 5 unsure what happened. I'l have to make sure that is fixed for next time In mean time going to break ASRB and make up that last loop. Also do seem to have a urge to get out see if any effects have started. I live right next to the libery so could be convenient for testing.
(Evening)
Libery was closed before i could test it so ended up taking a nap. No calls from singer as she's been on lock down as her roommate has issues with her talking to me so told her to wait till she's gone for her to call. Of course dancer is out having a blast with her new friends putting it on facebook making sure everybody knows. The very thing i've talked to her about. The good news with the anti-fear mod is i am feeling stronger and less willing to put up with her bad behavoir. Normally i,d be scared since right now she's my best option. Little dose she know as much as it hurts going to have to show i'm willing to walk away cause i'm not being a option as late more of a after thought. which i've already explained how i felt to her Numberious times. The only question is now will the anti-fear mod help whatever has to be done in response to this insult.
(Mourning)
Woke still thinking about fight with dancer. So against my better judgements sent her a long text about it. Laying out how I felt as well telling her I wanted to speak d more time with her and she,s my primary at least for now. Although I did let her know regardless of what happens I'll be good. Both of us are in transition now. Although it was a time when we both used to be closer. Id have a urge to look at some porn, but resisted the urge to do so as it would,t of helped. Latter that mourning was doing an interview for a new job the girl was doing it a young early 20's girl seemed a bit intimidated to the fact i just had strong eye contact with her. Maybe nothing could be my imagination. I was reading the sniper might affect people through a picture of them. So i put up a pic of dancer on my computer from a while back. i wonder if it will have any effects.
(afternoon)
Pulsar on phone playlist only got 4 loops and not 5 unsure what happened. I'l have to make sure that is fixed for next time In mean time going to break ASRB and make up that last loop. Also do seem to have a urge to get out see if any effects have started. I live right next to the libery so could be convenient for testing.
(Evening)
Libery was closed before i could test it so ended up taking a nap. No calls from singer as she's been on lock down as her roommate has issues with her talking to me so told her to wait till she's gone for her to call. Of course dancer is out having a blast with her new friends putting it on facebook making sure everybody knows. The very thing i've talked to her about. The good news with the anti-fear mod is i am feeling stronger and less willing to put up with her bad behavoir. Normally i,d be scared since right now she's my best option. Little dose she know as much as it hurts going to have to show i'm willing to walk away cause i'm not being a option as late more of a after thought. which i've already explained how i felt to her Numberious times. The only question is now will the anti-fear mod help whatever has to be done in response to this insult.
