12-05-2018, 07:08 PM
(This post was last modified: 12-05-2018, 07:09 PM by firsthelix.)
Shannon,
A life without fear, I still can't imagine this is coming true! I was the one who believed not being fearful at all, since one year ago when me and my ex split. Hell was I wrong. I was shocked at how many fears I still had - and still have when I took an honest and close look at my behavior in certain situations. For example, I thought I was not jealous at all, but the sucker strikes you hiddenly where you wouldn't expect it. For example when you have to deal with undisclosed sexual facts of your girlfriend's past. They call this phenomenon retroactive jealousy and it can drive you absolutely crazy.
Related to an additional fear, I was experiencing a real trauma after the break, just this summer. I went to a swinger kind of fetish party, where it would be easier to get a girl and bang her right away. I already had my fair share of gigs there. But this time there was one special girl I thought the most amazing one in the club. I observed her interacting and kissing with guys before on an earlier visit. That night she mingled with a couple and then went on the platform to dance and join a girl, right in front of me. Instead of approaching her right away, I gazed at her and kept shock-frozen. Then she left the platform to continue dancing with the same chick. A couple of minutes later a dude with a toy chain appeared and gave it to various girls to play with him. The first ones picked it but then didn't pull him in for a kiss, as he expected. Then he approached that chick of my choice and she let him go all the way till kissing. Maybe 10 mins later he took her by the hand and left with her for the darkroom to f*** her. Needless to say how I felt, like a complete idiot! Beyond the fact that I had several months of DMSI 3.2 exposure going for me, I was much better looking, athletic, tall and have all the traits to deal with girls and escalate - and here this dude appears with not much to offer than a toy chain and nothing to lose approaching her right away, fearlessly and as it was the most natural thing on earth. Well, it actually is, right, just don't have all the fears calling AA, hahaha. I am bold and very successful in sales and I never have AA when it comes to peeps and chicks up to an 8, but when it comes to 9s and 10s, boy I am so damned locked. I am still feeling depressed as hell when I have to think of that scene. This girl was "reserved" for me and I let this average chump take her away from me - well guess who's the chump... Anyway, not being too harsh with myself, it doesn't make things better. I will see her again and will have my chance, cause she's a swinger. I told myself I will bang his chick one day, no matter what, but in the meantime, I need to absolutely get rid of that final piece of AA. I guess the fear here being feeling to not be good enough, even though I consciously don't feel there is anyone "out of my league". Another fear maybe is to miss out, even after so much pussy in my life, I am still feeling down if I don't get that one chick I desire, and even maybe lose her to another guy. These are the deeply rooted fears that will screw up your life in all kinds of situations.
So again, a life without fears is like a dream, cause there are so many left-overs without knowing. I really hope this is going to work. Also, I really pray it will help me to execute the script as unfortunately, it didn't work for me at all so far.
A life without fear, I still can't imagine this is coming true! I was the one who believed not being fearful at all, since one year ago when me and my ex split. Hell was I wrong. I was shocked at how many fears I still had - and still have when I took an honest and close look at my behavior in certain situations. For example, I thought I was not jealous at all, but the sucker strikes you hiddenly where you wouldn't expect it. For example when you have to deal with undisclosed sexual facts of your girlfriend's past. They call this phenomenon retroactive jealousy and it can drive you absolutely crazy.
Related to an additional fear, I was experiencing a real trauma after the break, just this summer. I went to a swinger kind of fetish party, where it would be easier to get a girl and bang her right away. I already had my fair share of gigs there. But this time there was one special girl I thought the most amazing one in the club. I observed her interacting and kissing with guys before on an earlier visit. That night she mingled with a couple and then went on the platform to dance and join a girl, right in front of me. Instead of approaching her right away, I gazed at her and kept shock-frozen. Then she left the platform to continue dancing with the same chick. A couple of minutes later a dude with a toy chain appeared and gave it to various girls to play with him. The first ones picked it but then didn't pull him in for a kiss, as he expected. Then he approached that chick of my choice and she let him go all the way till kissing. Maybe 10 mins later he took her by the hand and left with her for the darkroom to f*** her. Needless to say how I felt, like a complete idiot! Beyond the fact that I had several months of DMSI 3.2 exposure going for me, I was much better looking, athletic, tall and have all the traits to deal with girls and escalate - and here this dude appears with not much to offer than a toy chain and nothing to lose approaching her right away, fearlessly and as it was the most natural thing on earth. Well, it actually is, right, just don't have all the fears calling AA, hahaha. I am bold and very successful in sales and I never have AA when it comes to peeps and chicks up to an 8, but when it comes to 9s and 10s, boy I am so damned locked. I am still feeling depressed as hell when I have to think of that scene. This girl was "reserved" for me and I let this average chump take her away from me - well guess who's the chump... Anyway, not being too harsh with myself, it doesn't make things better. I will see her again and will have my chance, cause she's a swinger. I told myself I will bang his chick one day, no matter what, but in the meantime, I need to absolutely get rid of that final piece of AA. I guess the fear here being feeling to not be good enough, even though I consciously don't feel there is anyone "out of my league". Another fear maybe is to miss out, even after so much pussy in my life, I am still feeling down if I don't get that one chick I desire, and even maybe lose her to another guy. These are the deeply rooted fears that will screw up your life in all kinds of situations.
So again, a life without fears is like a dream, cause there are so many left-overs without knowing. I really hope this is going to work. Also, I really pray it will help me to execute the script as unfortunately, it didn't work for me at all so far.
