12-03-2018, 12:51 PM
3 nights in...
So I got a speaking presentation tomorrow. Day before yesterday managed to write a few points for my speaking presentation, but I have totally left it to the last minute and have not prepared as fully and of best to my ability. When I was writing the points I felt good that I was actually doing something though, as it felt like I am doing this/I can do this.
I should be recording myself and going over my speech tonight at least. But I haven't done my strength training for a few weeks and would love to go workout, especially as I have not been Krav for a few weeks either and I came so close to going but I slept on the carpet this evening as it hit me from working nights on Saturday and Sunday.
I have this urge in side that I want to be productive and organised and get back to making progress in these things, but there will be a time period of adjustment, especially as my pay day is this Wednesday.
I am thinking of cancelling my debit card, so Krav can't take the next payment for this month and then just prepare myself for starting again in the new year, as they are breaking up for Xmas soon anyway.
Yeah I definitely want to do better and I want to make progress in all areas really.
If I didn't go/don't go to English class and do this presentation, I wont be able to pass the exam in June as this speaking presentation is a part of it. I am hoping I can just go there and just speak (I am nervous thinking about that, but I don't have a choice) and this will give me enough time to get my ass in gear and actually do the homework, learn, do better and progress, so I can actually get the required grade in June.
This is on my mind and it is important/priority, I might just get this out the way tomorrow and then go from there towards my other things.
Just going to class and turning up, is the first step!
The thing is, I could give an amazing speaking presentation if I fully prepared for it, so I am going in there not prepared and not my best and I wish I could be someone that was on the ball and gave 100% ...at least I would feel I like am fulfilling my potential and expressing more of who I really am. But to become that I need to be someone that is on the ball, gets shit done early, prepares fully and puts their heart and soul into what they are doing. If I want to succeed at my long term goals, I will have to become that person.
So I got a speaking presentation tomorrow. Day before yesterday managed to write a few points for my speaking presentation, but I have totally left it to the last minute and have not prepared as fully and of best to my ability. When I was writing the points I felt good that I was actually doing something though, as it felt like I am doing this/I can do this.
I should be recording myself and going over my speech tonight at least. But I haven't done my strength training for a few weeks and would love to go workout, especially as I have not been Krav for a few weeks either and I came so close to going but I slept on the carpet this evening as it hit me from working nights on Saturday and Sunday.
I have this urge in side that I want to be productive and organised and get back to making progress in these things, but there will be a time period of adjustment, especially as my pay day is this Wednesday.
I am thinking of cancelling my debit card, so Krav can't take the next payment for this month and then just prepare myself for starting again in the new year, as they are breaking up for Xmas soon anyway.
Yeah I definitely want to do better and I want to make progress in all areas really.
If I didn't go/don't go to English class and do this presentation, I wont be able to pass the exam in June as this speaking presentation is a part of it. I am hoping I can just go there and just speak (I am nervous thinking about that, but I don't have a choice) and this will give me enough time to get my ass in gear and actually do the homework, learn, do better and progress, so I can actually get the required grade in June.
This is on my mind and it is important/priority, I might just get this out the way tomorrow and then go from there towards my other things.
Just going to class and turning up, is the first step!
The thing is, I could give an amazing speaking presentation if I fully prepared for it, so I am going in there not prepared and not my best and I wish I could be someone that was on the ball and gave 100% ...at least I would feel I like am fulfilling my potential and expressing more of who I really am. But to become that I need to be someone that is on the ball, gets shit done early, prepares fully and puts their heart and soul into what they are doing. If I want to succeed at my long term goals, I will have to become that person.
