04-12-2012, 11:58 PM
onto stage 6
stage 5
1.much more indifferent-
2. Lot of manifestations that my friends vultered off of-its less upsetting than in use to be but is getting a little ridiculous and really has me going home feeling pretty shitty sometimes-that's really the only thing that gets to me these days-everything from my behavior to presence seems to get my friends laid-I've become their lucky charm-which would be great accept its at my expense. Maybe a bad way of thinking about it -but its starting to p--ss me off. And yes it most definitely has very little to do with them because they go out all the time and nothing ever happens to them with woman unless their with me. I love these guys and always do my own thing and they somehow leech off it. Also why are the sexually available woman choosing not the sex magnet-if I spend 200 dollars and 5 months of my life listenting to a sub called Sex Magnet I expect to have some edge over my friends. usually I am just going with the flow and leading and next thing I know some girl who came up to me or I talked to is with a friend hooking up.
3. Seeing one woman consistently for just sex who I am also becoming great friends with and who does a ton for me
4. A lot smoother and more social-but not necessarily in a sexual sense-sometimes it slips into that but not nearly enough
5. I'm aloof as fxxx
6. I feel permanently outside myself or my own life-like I'm just this huge presence.
7. Talk to woman spontaneously sometimes-tend to push things
All in all this difference are making VERY small but nice changes in my self and my life-I am REALLY giving the set the benefit of the doubt.
I have a feeling stage 6 will be awesome so lets see!
stage 5
1.much more indifferent-
2. Lot of manifestations that my friends vultered off of-its less upsetting than in use to be but is getting a little ridiculous and really has me going home feeling pretty shitty sometimes-that's really the only thing that gets to me these days-everything from my behavior to presence seems to get my friends laid-I've become their lucky charm-which would be great accept its at my expense. Maybe a bad way of thinking about it -but its starting to p--ss me off. And yes it most definitely has very little to do with them because they go out all the time and nothing ever happens to them with woman unless their with me. I love these guys and always do my own thing and they somehow leech off it. Also why are the sexually available woman choosing not the sex magnet-if I spend 200 dollars and 5 months of my life listenting to a sub called Sex Magnet I expect to have some edge over my friends. usually I am just going with the flow and leading and next thing I know some girl who came up to me or I talked to is with a friend hooking up.
3. Seeing one woman consistently for just sex who I am also becoming great friends with and who does a ton for me
4. A lot smoother and more social-but not necessarily in a sexual sense-sometimes it slips into that but not nearly enough
5. I'm aloof as fxxx
6. I feel permanently outside myself or my own life-like I'm just this huge presence.
7. Talk to woman spontaneously sometimes-tend to push things
All in all this difference are making VERY small but nice changes in my self and my life-I am REALLY giving the set the benefit of the doubt.
I have a feeling stage 6 will be awesome so lets see!
1. There is always some madness in love. But there is also always some reason in madness.
2. A thinker sees his own actions as experiments and questions... Success and failure are for him answers above all.
3. I would not know what the spirit of a philosopher might wish more then to be than a good dancer.-F.N.
2. A thinker sees his own actions as experiments and questions... Success and failure are for him answers above all.
3. I would not know what the spirit of a philosopher might wish more then to be than a good dancer.-F.N.
