11-10-2018, 07:12 AM
Rereading my journal, there is one more thing I noticed. I think I gained an external calmness, like the look of being zen. Even if internally I am excited or anxious, externally I think I was able to maintain my calmness. I say "I think", because I felt that way, but I did not know how it appeared to others.
And I think the calmness comes from focusing on the right things. I noticed that when I put my focus on the right stuff, my emotions take care of themselves easily, and I can do the things as intended. After the fact I felt okay about the whole thing, despite my heart racing and beating so hard I can hear it and feel it jumping out of my chest. It was quite an experience, although there weren't many chances of that happening.
I think i'm just beginning to understand what the sub does lol...
I'll write if I can think of more.
And I think the calmness comes from focusing on the right things. I noticed that when I put my focus on the right stuff, my emotions take care of themselves easily, and I can do the things as intended. After the fact I felt okay about the whole thing, despite my heart racing and beating so hard I can hear it and feel it jumping out of my chest. It was quite an experience, although there weren't many chances of that happening.
I think i'm just beginning to understand what the sub does lol...
I'll write if I can think of more.
