04-08-2012, 02:44 AM
everything seems very low key
some regression happening-experiencing issues I have had difficulty with.
Feeling a huge disconnect between what I want to do and say and my outward behavior.
Alot of 'skiddish' attraction in woman. My 'game' is worse then its been in years. Feeling fairly anti social and when I do go out-don't venture to much out of my social circle. Some very attractive woman did start talking to me yesterday when I was outside but I was in a bad mood and felt inhibited. I don't feel like myself at all anymore, I almost seem to be pushing people away. I've continual tried to let go of thinking about the set and just live my life but its hard because between the exhaustion, the resistance, and the changes I feel like I'm spinning my wheels in place. My confidence and self esteem also routinely plummet out of the blue. There are some minor positives but they only appease the part of me that cares about getting noticed/validation so as of now there pretty much mute. 1 more week of stage 5..I remember reading stage 6 really picks things up a notch..I really hope so. Its hysterical that everything that is off right now are all the issues address in SM 2, motivation, persistent, approaching, increased manifestation, playfulness, HETEROSEXUAL vibe (no more ridiculous weird shit with guys), my preference in woman lol. 6 more weeks, I've had glimpses of glory, so we'll see. I'm going to give it 6 weeks then 4 days of assimilation and then determine whether they set is a keeper.
some regression happening-experiencing issues I have had difficulty with.
Feeling a huge disconnect between what I want to do and say and my outward behavior.
Alot of 'skiddish' attraction in woman. My 'game' is worse then its been in years. Feeling fairly anti social and when I do go out-don't venture to much out of my social circle. Some very attractive woman did start talking to me yesterday when I was outside but I was in a bad mood and felt inhibited. I don't feel like myself at all anymore, I almost seem to be pushing people away. I've continual tried to let go of thinking about the set and just live my life but its hard because between the exhaustion, the resistance, and the changes I feel like I'm spinning my wheels in place. My confidence and self esteem also routinely plummet out of the blue. There are some minor positives but they only appease the part of me that cares about getting noticed/validation so as of now there pretty much mute. 1 more week of stage 5..I remember reading stage 6 really picks things up a notch..I really hope so. Its hysterical that everything that is off right now are all the issues address in SM 2, motivation, persistent, approaching, increased manifestation, playfulness, HETEROSEXUAL vibe (no more ridiculous weird shit with guys), my preference in woman lol. 6 more weeks, I've had glimpses of glory, so we'll see. I'm going to give it 6 weeks then 4 days of assimilation and then determine whether they set is a keeper.
1. There is always some madness in love. But there is also always some reason in madness.
2. A thinker sees his own actions as experiments and questions... Success and failure are for him answers above all.
3. I would not know what the spirit of a philosopher might wish more then to be than a good dancer.-F.N.
2. A thinker sees his own actions as experiments and questions... Success and failure are for him answers above all.
3. I would not know what the spirit of a philosopher might wish more then to be than a good dancer.-F.N.
