Im still sick (missed 7 days of uni so far) 
but thought I should update some information to my journal and also update while I wait on @Shannon to get back to me regarding the money back for UMOP as per my previous entries here and on his discussion thread.
UPDATE
Stopped this sub on 23rd Tuesday.
35 days break will therefore end on 26th November 2018
If DMSI 3.3 is released by then I should be able to start from 27th November.
I realised that the self talk I have that I am aware of that keeps occurring is " I cant be bothered, or I cant be arsed/assed"
I see this self talk and my behaviour as self sabotage. I therefore hope that subs such as UMOP deal with this @Shannon
In other news, I had a match with a girl on Tinder (calling her Tindergirl #1) from here in Europe maybe 6-12months ago. I randomly log on to tinder and send her a HEY message. I dont have my pics on tinder as I dont believe in social media and due to the recent failures in the protection of data is clear a small carbon footprint will do wonders for ones soul if not for the ozone layer lol
Anyway so 3 days ago she finally replied, and its been a whirlwind tbh where its clear to her she wants to date me and have a polyamorous/open kind of relationship of some kind in some ways.
We've been talking on the phone even though im sick and unwell.
She is supposed to come over tomorrow and stay over, even though shes going to start her crimson wave around now and im sick but today im deciding to postpone this for those reasons but mostly cos im too sick and yup I cant be bothered lol
Another girl from tinder (TG#2) that talked to me but disappeared maybe around march (I cant recall and cant be bothered to find out since shes not important to me) got back in touch days ago too and told me she got into a relationship and disappeared but basically its clear she wants to fuck me.
I dont see these developments as anything to do with DMSI or TID at all. Yes its nice and a surprise but it would be wrong for all to jump on this and claim its a victory for the subs when so far I have seen no evidence that the subs work for me or on me, except for no fap on 1 loop of 3.2. I hope however that in time I can join the others that have had success from the subs here.
other news: I have lost it seems 3 friends in 1 week last week due to the behaviour of these 3 girls towards me. 1 of them was potsgirl, someone those of you following my journals will be aware of. I was down about 2 of these and more so about potsgirl and then i got sick. I however dont care now and havent done after a day of realising I deserve better anyway!
I finally got my finger out of my ass and wrote the extensive 12-15page email i wanted and needed to, to the personal trainer I have found in the UK that will be helping me online in my quest for good health and the body beautiful. I sent him the email last night, after procrastinating on it as well as wasting time with the tinder girl #1 on the phone. Its fun but I was always frustrated and wanted her to just piss off so I can get on with things lol.
anyway thats the news so far folks and hopefully some data for @Shannon
thanks
but thought I should update some information to my journal and also update while I wait on @Shannon to get back to me regarding the money back for UMOP as per my previous entries here and on his discussion thread.UPDATE
Stopped this sub on 23rd Tuesday.
35 days break will therefore end on 26th November 2018
If DMSI 3.3 is released by then I should be able to start from 27th November.
I realised that the self talk I have that I am aware of that keeps occurring is " I cant be bothered, or I cant be arsed/assed"
I see this self talk and my behaviour as self sabotage. I therefore hope that subs such as UMOP deal with this @Shannon
In other news, I had a match with a girl on Tinder (calling her Tindergirl #1) from here in Europe maybe 6-12months ago. I randomly log on to tinder and send her a HEY message. I dont have my pics on tinder as I dont believe in social media and due to the recent failures in the protection of data is clear a small carbon footprint will do wonders for ones soul if not for the ozone layer lol
Anyway so 3 days ago she finally replied, and its been a whirlwind tbh where its clear to her she wants to date me and have a polyamorous/open kind of relationship of some kind in some ways.
We've been talking on the phone even though im sick and unwell.
She is supposed to come over tomorrow and stay over, even though shes going to start her crimson wave around now and im sick but today im deciding to postpone this for those reasons but mostly cos im too sick and yup I cant be bothered lol
Another girl from tinder (TG#2) that talked to me but disappeared maybe around march (I cant recall and cant be bothered to find out since shes not important to me) got back in touch days ago too and told me she got into a relationship and disappeared but basically its clear she wants to fuck me.
I dont see these developments as anything to do with DMSI or TID at all. Yes its nice and a surprise but it would be wrong for all to jump on this and claim its a victory for the subs when so far I have seen no evidence that the subs work for me or on me, except for no fap on 1 loop of 3.2. I hope however that in time I can join the others that have had success from the subs here.
other news: I have lost it seems 3 friends in 1 week last week due to the behaviour of these 3 girls towards me. 1 of them was potsgirl, someone those of you following my journals will be aware of. I was down about 2 of these and more so about potsgirl and then i got sick. I however dont care now and havent done after a day of realising I deserve better anyway!
I finally got my finger out of my ass and wrote the extensive 12-15page email i wanted and needed to, to the personal trainer I have found in the UK that will be helping me online in my quest for good health and the body beautiful. I sent him the email last night, after procrastinating on it as well as wasting time with the tinder girl #1 on the phone. Its fun but I was always frustrated and wanted her to just piss off so I can get on with things lol.
anyway thats the news so far folks and hopefully some data for @Shannon
thanks
OF3 5.75.7G 13/15Vol
1L-2O/3OF; (1L-2/2 5/6); (2L 19/6); (3L 27/6); (4L 9/7); (H4L 25/7)
W 19 May
MLS 5.5G: ≈70days x2, IYGSH: 54, E2: 78+48, DMSI 3.2: 56 & 22, UMOP1: 57+UMOP2: 33 = 90+10 US v12/15=100, OF: 45, OF2: 56days
1L-2O/3OF; (1L-2/2 5/6); (2L 19/6); (3L 27/6); (4L 9/7); (H4L 25/7)
W 19 May
MLS 5.5G: ≈70days x2, IYGSH: 54, E2: 78+48, DMSI 3.2: 56 & 22, UMOP1: 57+UMOP2: 33 = 90+10 US v12/15=100, OF: 45, OF2: 56days
