10-19-2018, 02:34 AM
I was kicking myself when I was down with that last post. I did the best I could do at the time I was struggling with the resources and help I had available. It's just now the subliminals are better and it's obvious to me.
I guess when you grow up with certain struggles others don't face it makes you feel like you're doing something horribly wrong. I think I still have left over guilt and shame. It all originated from my mind and I created it, but that dorsnt mean the solution was easy at that point in time. Maybe now it is and I should be happy I'm getting closer to freedom vs beating myself up for my past.
I guess when you grow up with certain struggles others don't face it makes you feel like you're doing something horribly wrong. I think I still have left over guilt and shame. It all originated from my mind and I created it, but that dorsnt mean the solution was easy at that point in time. Maybe now it is and I should be happy I'm getting closer to freedom vs beating myself up for my past.
INFP
