04-05-2012, 06:14 PM
(04-05-2012, 05:49 PM)benjamin Wrote: hahahaa women are full of shit when they say stuff like this.
Reminds me when I was doing security while doing Alpha 2011. Some girls abused me at the door because their friend had no id, one of them was going "oh I bet you don't have a girlfriend, your an asshole" and all kinds of shit. In the end I actually said "just fuck off, i've had enough of your shit" and they were shocked and stopped, being nice wasn't working so I decided to be 'flexible'.
Next time I seen that girl she was talking to me normally and was attracted to me. It's just a manipulation technique and as Shannon said when they don't get away with it, they are like "hmm I like this guy".
These 2 journals make me more excited for Alpha 5.0, I feel alot of the changes I made during 2011 have been lost unfortunately and I loved how confident I was while on the set. I know it will definately take a few run throughs for me for it to be more natural.
-Ben
That is funny Ben about what you said to those girls, I bet they weren't use to a man standing up to them like what you did. Which caused the one girl to be attracted to you.
Day 12
So far, I am noticing that I tell people how I feel at the present moment if they do something that annoys me. Lately, which has been a lot of things, the stupidity of people I have to put up with at work as really hit a nerve with me. I have noticed that when I disagreements with people, I am able to express my view without being rude about it. Or get nervous, I am just able to say what I want, if they don't like it, tough.
Plus, I have been sticking to my ethics, morals, mostly dealing with my virginity. A lot of guys at work have said that I should just pay to lose it or find a girl that is willing to give it up. I just tell them that I am not that easy by giving it up like that. Also, I want a woman of high status who has higher standards for herself and the men she wants to date. It will happen when it happens, if you guys don't like it, tough it is my life I chose to do with it what I want.
