Day 27 - Saturday 13th Oct 2018
(Time: 11.53pm) - (Cycle 3 - 2nd Day Break - 5 Loops)
Today is the 2nd and last day of break and then I am starting Cycle 4 of 7 days.
I have been on 5 loops for 7 days (1 cycles so far) and the previous 1 loops for 14days (2 cycles) - this is to help me and others calculate as we go along. i.e. 2 cycles of 1 loop and future cycles are 5loops. - ill add this to my signature actually to help me.
I have had a very busy week and a very busy day yesterday.
Yesterday was day 1 of my break and I managed to get to sleep at 11pm and wake yesterday at 6.30am which is better in the number of hours sleep I am hoping to get to per day (9-10hrs) - my average so far could be around 5-6hrs.
Yesterday I got home around 9.30pm (my goal is to sleep around 9-9.30pm) so this was missed however I hoped to be in bed by 11pm. Instead I had to deal with long phone calls with 2 members of my family yesterday which both exhausted me and somewhat stressed me out.
My only resort to this was to try and get to sleep but instead I was again on the phone to others and thus stayed up then got hungry and stayed up even longer.
I slept late, no idea what time and woke up today around 1-2pm.
TODAY has been a terribly slow, lazy boring day.
I ate breakfast late and then had a cup of tea with a snickers chocolate bar (I am not endorsing this or any brand of chocolate - feel free to eat others at your pleasure or avoid if you want to have a healthy life lol). This may have led to a sugar crash in my system (in hindsight I say this) but basically I was fed up, lazy and bored.
I became completely lazy and I wont say down as in depressive but just apathetic, with no motivation at all.
I have felt like this all evening.
I only in the last hour got some motivation to finally do 1 out of the 3 washing machine loads of laundry I have to do - after a week of uni basically.
I also washed dishes too and tidied up by throwing away rubbish into the trash bag (for you US members lol).
Overall though I have not been hungry and its now 11.58pm and the desire to sleep is not there.
In SUMMARY - the procrastination and lack of motivation is still there if not stronger.
Addendum: Even though today I have lacked motivation and have procrastination too, I do want to say that the previous days I think I had motivation but had procrastination. So this time I have a double negative it seems and thus regressed.
Seeing from Shannon's Journal Volume 2 entry https://subliminal-talk.com/Thread-Men-s...#pid207811 :
Its clear that all previous subs for me didnt work even though the hype and hope that H&C would work was there. I know E2 may have worked for some but it never worked for me and so far I had hoped by now something would have. Therefore I am hoping that this new FRM is the solution for us all.
I see all subs here at IML as experimental. Even though DMSI is the only one that is highlighted as experimental I do realise that each sub is in itself an experiment and im proud to be a member of this journey with Shannon in helping to make his subs the life changers he and we all want them to be.
So I will persist with the 5 loops even though today I have had a negative rather than positive step, ie back not forward I feel but I will persist until either my 3months with this sub is over to see if it has started to work on me or until Shannon himself says to me that its time to test out the FRM.
Heres to us all - cheers
(Time: 11.53pm) - (Cycle 3 - 2nd Day Break - 5 Loops)
Today is the 2nd and last day of break and then I am starting Cycle 4 of 7 days.
I have been on 5 loops for 7 days (1 cycles so far) and the previous 1 loops for 14days (2 cycles) - this is to help me and others calculate as we go along. i.e. 2 cycles of 1 loop and future cycles are 5loops. - ill add this to my signature actually to help me.
I have had a very busy week and a very busy day yesterday.
Yesterday was day 1 of my break and I managed to get to sleep at 11pm and wake yesterday at 6.30am which is better in the number of hours sleep I am hoping to get to per day (9-10hrs) - my average so far could be around 5-6hrs.
Yesterday I got home around 9.30pm (my goal is to sleep around 9-9.30pm) so this was missed however I hoped to be in bed by 11pm. Instead I had to deal with long phone calls with 2 members of my family yesterday which both exhausted me and somewhat stressed me out.
My only resort to this was to try and get to sleep but instead I was again on the phone to others and thus stayed up then got hungry and stayed up even longer.
I slept late, no idea what time and woke up today around 1-2pm.
TODAY has been a terribly slow, lazy boring day.
I ate breakfast late and then had a cup of tea with a snickers chocolate bar (I am not endorsing this or any brand of chocolate - feel free to eat others at your pleasure or avoid if you want to have a healthy life lol). This may have led to a sugar crash in my system (in hindsight I say this) but basically I was fed up, lazy and bored.
I became completely lazy and I wont say down as in depressive but just apathetic, with no motivation at all.
I have felt like this all evening.
I only in the last hour got some motivation to finally do 1 out of the 3 washing machine loads of laundry I have to do - after a week of uni basically.
I also washed dishes too and tidied up by throwing away rubbish into the trash bag (for you US members lol).
Overall though I have not been hungry and its now 11.58pm and the desire to sleep is not there.
In SUMMARY - the procrastination and lack of motivation is still there if not stronger.
Addendum: Even though today I have lacked motivation and have procrastination too, I do want to say that the previous days I think I had motivation but had procrastination. So this time I have a double negative it seems and thus regressed.
Seeing from Shannon's Journal Volume 2 entry https://subliminal-talk.com/Thread-Men-s...#pid207811 :
Quote:H&C vs FRM Explained, 101
Its clear that all previous subs for me didnt work even though the hype and hope that H&C would work was there. I know E2 may have worked for some but it never worked for me and so far I had hoped by now something would have. Therefore I am hoping that this new FRM is the solution for us all.
I see all subs here at IML as experimental. Even though DMSI is the only one that is highlighted as experimental I do realise that each sub is in itself an experiment and im proud to be a member of this journey with Shannon in helping to make his subs the life changers he and we all want them to be.
So I will persist with the 5 loops even though today I have had a negative rather than positive step, ie back not forward I feel but I will persist until either my 3months with this sub is over to see if it has started to work on me or until Shannon himself says to me that its time to test out the FRM.
Heres to us all - cheers
OF3 5.75.7G 13/15Vol
1L-2O/3OF; (1L-2/2 5/6); (2L 19/6); (3L 27/6); (4L 9/7); (H4L 25/7)
W 19 May
MLS 5.5G: ≈70days x2, IYGSH: 54, E2: 78+48, DMSI 3.2: 56 & 22, UMOP1: 57+UMOP2: 33 = 90+10 US v12/15=100, OF: 45, OF2: 56days
1L-2O/3OF; (1L-2/2 5/6); (2L 19/6); (3L 27/6); (4L 9/7); (H4L 25/7)
W 19 May
MLS 5.5G: ≈70days x2, IYGSH: 54, E2: 78+48, DMSI 3.2: 56 & 22, UMOP1: 57+UMOP2: 33 = 90+10 US v12/15=100, OF: 45, OF2: 56days
