04-04-2012, 12:28 AM
(04-03-2012, 11:51 PM)RainbowAbyss Wrote: @Spiral-I was not being sarcastic in the least
@ Shannon-what I thought was the set making me more indirect I see might now be my wanting to be more direct and being aware of that but conflicted.
Honestly I am very conflicted. These days I have a mixture of aloof, not neediness, but sensitivity with woman while not being interested in engaging them yet wanting them sexually. There is such strong tension between myself and most woman I am half attracted to that its like moving through gravy to go near hear and makes me a virtual timid moron when trying to start a conversation, once I am in convo my inner maestro seems to come out more often. Of course when I go out and for some reason actual feel like doing anything about anything situations turn golden with woman fairly quickly but I feel little control over it. I have had more sex in the past 5 months then since my best college days so that seems to give some credit to set. But the rest of the changes feel more like a veneer than any deep attitude change with woman. What I mean by that is its so weird because most days I think my day to day conscious response to most woman, thoughts about woman, and actions with woman really have not changed much except all my dates go way better, and I'm having more sex and I'v had more woman fall into my lap, figuratively and literally, then before.
There are so many good things about this set but I've told fun stories enough-let me get some complaining off my chest. 5 months into the set while I guess I'm pretty carefree when it comes to woman, I don't feel certainty with attracting the woman I desire, I don't feel an abundance of woman, I don't feel scarcity either, but not abundant, I get annoyed at woman's reactions or lack of reactions to me all the time, alot of the time woman are HIDING their attraction to me once I notice them etc. My motivation is fairly low and my confidence doesn't feel so great either. Now all of this could be resistance or unconsciously related to some difficulty in my personal living and finicial/career situation but I wanted to put it out there.
Also no need to read woman's minds-just in SM 3, long time from now I know, have it so the user DOESN'T look for permission or signals and just assumes attraction and acts of his own intentions doing exactly what he wants, for his own amusement, with woman and directly, obviously precautions, but the difference between harassment/rape and that dominant male seduction you were talking about is essentially attraction level lol Ok maybe not exactly but you get the point.
It sounds like a series of topics that are all being dealt with in different levels of resistance. But since you are using Version 1, we can't know how valid this is anymore since Version 2.0 is out and makes a LOT of improvements. I am using 2.0 and let me tell you, I don't look for permission. I just naturally flow into what I want to do.
Unfortunately, I keep finding myself turned off by the options I have around me, typically because they have vastly overvalued themselves based on the desperation of and number of betas they can have, ego developed around those factors, control issues, etc. It amazes me how women in the United States can be so lazy about their personal appearance and guys still just line up to get wet.
Anyway, it doesn't seem like something I can do anything about if you're using Version 1.0, since Version 2.0 has been released.
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The scientist has a question to find an answer for. The pseudo-scientist has an answer to find a question for. ~ "Failure is the path of least persistence." - Chinese Fortune Cookie ~ Logic left. Emotion right. But thinking, straight ahead. ~ Sperate supra omnia in valorem. (The value of trust is above all else.) ~ Meowsomeness!