04-03-2012, 11:51 PM
@Spiral-I was not being sarcastic in the least
@ Shannon-what I thought was the set making me more indirect I see might now be my wanting to be more direct and being aware of that but conflicted.
Honestly I am very conflicted. These days I have a mixture of aloof, not neediness, but sensitivity with woman while not being interested in engaging them yet wanting them sexually. There is such strong tension between myself and most woman I am half attracted to that its like moving through gravy to go near hear and makes me a virtual timid moron when trying to start a conversation, once I am in convo my inner maestro seems to come out more often. Of course when I go out and for some reason actual feel like doing anything about anything situations turn golden with woman fairly quickly but I feel little control over it. I have had more sex in the past 5 months then since my best college days so that seems to give some credit to set. But the rest of the changes feel more like a veneer than any deep attitude change with woman. What I mean by that is its so weird because most days I think my day to day conscious response to most woman, thoughts about woman, and actions with woman really have not changed much except all my dates go way better, and I'm having more sex and I'v had more woman fall into my lap, figuratively and literally
, then before.
There are so many good things about this set but I've told fun stories enough-let me get some complaining off my chest. 5 months into the set while I guess I'm pretty carefree when it comes to woman, I don't feel certainty with attracting the woman I desire, I don't feel an abundance of woman, I don't feel scarcity either, but not abundant, I get annoyed at woman's reactions or lack of reactions to me all the time, alot of the time woman are HIDING their attraction to me once I notice them etc. My motivation is fairly low and my confidence doesn't feel so great either. Now all of this could be resistance or unconsciously related to some difficulty in my personal living and finicial/career situation but I wanted to put it out there.
Also no need to read woman's minds-just in SM 3, long time from now I know, have it so the user DOESN'T look for permission or signals and just assumes attraction and acts of his own intentions doing exactly what he wants, for his own amusement, with woman and directly, obviously precautions, but the difference between harassment/rape and that dominant male seduction you were talking about is essentially attraction level lol Ok maybe not exactly but you get the point.
@ Shannon-what I thought was the set making me more indirect I see might now be my wanting to be more direct and being aware of that but conflicted.
Honestly I am very conflicted. These days I have a mixture of aloof, not neediness, but sensitivity with woman while not being interested in engaging them yet wanting them sexually. There is such strong tension between myself and most woman I am half attracted to that its like moving through gravy to go near hear and makes me a virtual timid moron when trying to start a conversation, once I am in convo my inner maestro seems to come out more often. Of course when I go out and for some reason actual feel like doing anything about anything situations turn golden with woman fairly quickly but I feel little control over it. I have had more sex in the past 5 months then since my best college days so that seems to give some credit to set. But the rest of the changes feel more like a veneer than any deep attitude change with woman. What I mean by that is its so weird because most days I think my day to day conscious response to most woman, thoughts about woman, and actions with woman really have not changed much except all my dates go way better, and I'm having more sex and I'v had more woman fall into my lap, figuratively and literally
, then before.There are so many good things about this set but I've told fun stories enough-let me get some complaining off my chest. 5 months into the set while I guess I'm pretty carefree when it comes to woman, I don't feel certainty with attracting the woman I desire, I don't feel an abundance of woman, I don't feel scarcity either, but not abundant, I get annoyed at woman's reactions or lack of reactions to me all the time, alot of the time woman are HIDING their attraction to me once I notice them etc. My motivation is fairly low and my confidence doesn't feel so great either. Now all of this could be resistance or unconsciously related to some difficulty in my personal living and finicial/career situation but I wanted to put it out there.
Also no need to read woman's minds-just in SM 3, long time from now I know, have it so the user DOESN'T look for permission or signals and just assumes attraction and acts of his own intentions doing exactly what he wants, for his own amusement, with woman and directly, obviously precautions, but the difference between harassment/rape and that dominant male seduction you were talking about is essentially attraction level lol Ok maybe not exactly but you get the point.
1. There is always some madness in love. But there is also always some reason in madness.
2. A thinker sees his own actions as experiments and questions... Success and failure are for him answers above all.
3. I would not know what the spirit of a philosopher might wish more then to be than a good dancer.-F.N.
2. A thinker sees his own actions as experiments and questions... Success and failure are for him answers above all.
3. I would not know what the spirit of a philosopher might wish more then to be than a good dancer.-F.N.
