10-12-2018, 12:05 PM
I am, around 3 years later, finally starting to see the light in the tunnel of the existential hell that I have been living in. Like there is finally something to gravitate back towards, and not just pure suffering without any direction or points of reference. That's what it has been like. I have just gone forward on pure faith that thing will one day become better, and now they have. I'm starting to function as a human being again, able to do simple things just like starting to work again, I had lunch with a colleague today and discussed some work, that couldn't be done before. I was just not able to, I wasn't there. It feels fantastic to finally have the buoy back, the stable point that is me, back again. I can't even express it in words right now, but I will be later on.
