Shannon's Journal Discussion Volume 3

[Shannon]

Shannon, I've been on MLS since August 28 (I took a 32-day break from DMSI) and the H/C seems to be DMSI-like. It's not as intense as DMSI h/c but still it makes me shed tears and I do have the something-is-stuck-in-my stomach feeling. Other than that, the learning part hasn't improved at all and the procrastination seems to have gone up. Celebrity effect from DMSI is there no more. I have used two 5.5G subs (DMSI and MLS). Before that I used Overcome Approach Anxiety (I think that was 4g) for a couple of weeks prior to switching to DMSI. It's been a year I've been with IML and I didn't have sex on DMSI after trying it for 9 months. I don't want to stop MLS before giving it a three month time. However, why am I resisting your sub? Any insight?

The answer to resistance, the universe and everything seems to be... fear. Everything traces back to that, every time. I know some of you disagree with me on that, but based on my understanding of human psychology and the conscious and subconscious awareness, that's what it is.

That's why I have H&C, and that's why I have been developing the fear removal modules so intensely for almost a year now.

Why don't you want to stop MLS if you're just resisting it?