10-10-2018, 09:10 PM
I have a confession to make. Or just need to wright something off me. I had a girlfriend a while back (2 years ago) we broke up, but we still talk occationally, and we had sex last time in march this year. But she doesn't want to meet again or hook up because she feel bad afterwards because of all the emotions that come back. Anyway, I have some kind of remorse regarding that. I want her, but kind of to much. I lost myself in her, and that is why I don't want to get back together (don't even know if she want to, but I still think she like me). It's some kind of pull she has, that I get lost in. I have some nude photos of her that I keep private, but from time to time I take a look at them and feel so damn attracted to her, not just her body, but _her_. It's like I can't control myself around her. My emotions and desires go haywire. And I don't like that. It feels like she has control over me someway. But I close down the photos, refrain from jacking off and just go back to normal. But still not normal, still thinking about what I am loosing.
Is it me it's wrong with? I need to work on myself and get my own stability before getting together with a girl like her, is my own analysis. So I don't loose myself in it again. She is just so..seductive, pulling.
What are your analysis? Maybe she is TO seductive if you know what I mean. That can't be healthy to. Like if everything is about sex (in some way I think she is wired that way) and that mess me up. BLuuurrrhhhgghh. Ranting, but would love to have some input on this, felt good to write about it though.
Is it me it's wrong with? I need to work on myself and get my own stability before getting together with a girl like her, is my own analysis. So I don't loose myself in it again. She is just so..seductive, pulling.
What are your analysis? Maybe she is TO seductive if you know what I mean. That can't be healthy to. Like if everything is about sex (in some way I think she is wired that way) and that mess me up. BLuuurrrhhhgghh. Ranting, but would love to have some input on this, felt good to write about it though.
