10-10-2018, 05:57 AM
(10-10-2018, 05:42 AM)Darwin Wrote: Nice one Shannon.
I had a first with subs in that I've had resistance before in the form of wanting to change, but this time I had resistance to resistance and had to change back because I had a deep feeling that 'I wasn't finished'. I went back to USLM after a week of being off it.
I'm not enjoying it though - It's somehow triggering a lot of passivity and laziness in me right now as well as dampening motivation and self responsibility because 'it's all going to be done for me'. Quite unpleasant. My tendency in the past has been to hide from responsibility and conflict/friction and the sense that this sub will 'take care of me' is something I have to overcome to execute properly.
I'm only doing one loop per day, but I seem to need an extra hour of sleep, and then feeling tired again in the afternoon.
