Shannon's Journal Discussion Volume 3

[Shannon]

Hi Shannon. Hope you're good.

Was wondering whether I could get some feedback about something. Went to a coffee shop after work. As I was entering, I saw a good looking blonde leaving with a takeaway cup.

When I paid for my tea, and sat down I notice the blonde was sat on the opposite side of the room to me and felt her eyes on me. As she was slightly to my left and there were people sightly in my line of slight, I decided to do a peekabo to see if he was looking. She did look at least twice.

The problem was that I got a little anxious making eye contact, even avoiding it. This was super frustrating. Even when I got a hint a girl may be interested in me.

As she left and I could see the back of her head, she did a hair toss, so it did look like she wa trying to gt me attention.

I am not sure why I would sabotage myself like that.

What program are you currently using, and what has been your experience with women hurting you in the past?

Hi Shannon. Apologies I have been doing DMSI 3.2. It is just this week and a bit, I have done 3.2A. I have slightly gone over and realised I haven’t taken a day break, as I have been of A for a week and a half. For the last month and a bit I have been doing 3.2B.

3.2B has helped immensely in getting over the girl that I mentioned in my journal that I had my first kiss with. She was the one who said don’t fall in love with me. The post link is https://www.subliminal-talk.com/Thread-M...#pid201299

I noticed as long as I was on A I was feeling disheartened about the whole ordeal, and thought about her a lot. But as soon as I switched on version B, I thought about her less.

When I did version A this time round, I found out that she had dinner with another guy, so she was seeing someone else. This was on Monday and really got me down, but made a decision not to let it get me down and there will be other girls that will be interested in me.

Got better by Wednesday. Then me getting nervous on in the coffee shop happened on the Friday.

Initially I was finding Version A was not helping me in the healing at all, and I was stuck in limbo. I only started putting the girl in question behind me on version B. So I am not sure in future to just stick to verison B of cycling between the 2 versions on a permanent basis.

There aren’t many other times when I have been hurt by a woman. Obviously got turned down when asking for dates, but this was when I was in school. That’s a long time ago.

Version A is focused on trying to get you to heal and clear whatever stands in your way of executing. So if on A you focus on her and on B you don't, something about her and your experience with her stands in your way of executing.

Just because it isn't addressed directly in B doesn't change that. I would keep cycling.

You may have other fears and irrational reasons for being afraid of success.