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[Zane]

I also wanna tell u guys this.. Ever since I stopped DMSI3.2... I am so scared of being alone. I always feel as if someone thing is behind me and watching me.. Sometimes I get scared when my phone rings. Like some ghost or something.. I know it's all in my head but you know.. It's not good.. Why is this happening? I am even scared to pee or brush my teeth alone. lol

I freaking out I understand but being in state of constant fear.. I do remember going thru this fearful state once on DMSI but it was for like a week only.. But now I have left DMSI. It's back?
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Something I didn't mention in my journal is that I saw and felt things the first few days when I first began to play dmsi a.

I was outside, and I saw this thing. The closest I can describe it would be like a very large, abouit four to five feet long by about a foot wide black bird wing. It was as if it was made up of small grains of sand. I saw it flying around about 30 feet away from me.

When I came home that day, I felt the presense of a being above my couch, where I had been sleeping while playing dmsi. I couldn't see it, but I knew that it was there.

It didn't scare me, but it was really abnormal. Are you still experiencing that fear?

Might have been an Out of body experience

I'm not sure what you mean. Do you think that there was someone having an out of body experience lurking in my house or that I was the one having the out of body experience?

Maybe you having an altered state of consciousness on the edge of sleep.It's hard to explain without sounding crazy. The other night I went to bed early and my wife was still awake on the lounge watching TV. I was on the edge of sleep then it felt like someone was on top of me and sprayed my face twice with water from a squirt bottle. I couldn't move even though I tried. I thought my wife was doing it. I eventually snapped out of it and looked over and my wife was still in the same spot. My face wasn't wet.This happened within half an hour. I didn't say anything to my wife cause she might think I'm crazy. The spraying with water sensation I had may have been energy being released from my chakra, I don't know. I don't know if this will be helpful to you. Don't get scared it's all good.

Believe me, I had experienced similar stuff and that If I told anyone besides you guys.. I would be considered a nut.

I do believe this is an altered state of consciousness where I feel like I am not me but, someone else. But in the end I know its all good.