Shannon,
I'm seeking your imput, as I'm going through some rough stuff on E2, legitimately. It's surfacing old insecurities in me, and I've felt unconfident around male coworkers today.
I'm running E2 until Halloween, and I've had my mind on my next sub lately. I've been sabotaging some success via heavy caffeine consumption, and I've been tempted lately to play MLS since it stimulates my mind and body both.
In the middle of emotional pains I've felt, I lean heavily towards doing UD again, even knowing it may be quiet the first week or so. But me trying to lie to myself (or denial) has escalated recently, and the thing I value about UD is it knowing exactly where to focus. For example, I have never been labelled ADD, but under extreme stress, I'm looking everywhere except NOW. I've not been grounded peacefully lately. My old survival strategies have been rising to the surface, mostly where I feel like a scared child around unavailable adults. (That's definitely being worked on by E2)
I've considered MLS too since it has a detox element, but MLS is not UD. You've pointed this out with other newer subs.
And for its sheer power and the most recent developments, I've been wondering about DMSI. I do have ugly associations with sex, all taken from my childhood. I still feel very inadequate and inept in regards to sex with women. Well.....not sex really--it's the relating I avoid.
But my main goal is mental detoxing of old beliefs I have towards myself and other people. I love the polymorphic scripting where it finds my hidden needs and heals them. What I experienced my first UD run I did not see coming. It touched my core.
I may have opened too much to discuss in this post, but I'm asking "which sub would you recommend I use after E2?"
Thank you.
I'm seeking your imput, as I'm going through some rough stuff on E2, legitimately. It's surfacing old insecurities in me, and I've felt unconfident around male coworkers today.
I'm running E2 until Halloween, and I've had my mind on my next sub lately. I've been sabotaging some success via heavy caffeine consumption, and I've been tempted lately to play MLS since it stimulates my mind and body both.
In the middle of emotional pains I've felt, I lean heavily towards doing UD again, even knowing it may be quiet the first week or so. But me trying to lie to myself (or denial) has escalated recently, and the thing I value about UD is it knowing exactly where to focus. For example, I have never been labelled ADD, but under extreme stress, I'm looking everywhere except NOW. I've not been grounded peacefully lately. My old survival strategies have been rising to the surface, mostly where I feel like a scared child around unavailable adults. (That's definitely being worked on by E2)
I've considered MLS too since it has a detox element, but MLS is not UD. You've pointed this out with other newer subs.
And for its sheer power and the most recent developments, I've been wondering about DMSI. I do have ugly associations with sex, all taken from my childhood. I still feel very inadequate and inept in regards to sex with women. Well.....not sex really--it's the relating I avoid.
But my main goal is mental detoxing of old beliefs I have towards myself and other people. I love the polymorphic scripting where it finds my hidden needs and heals them. What I experienced my first UD run I did not see coming. It touched my core.
I may have opened too much to discuss in this post, but I'm asking "which sub would you recommend I use after E2?"
Thank you.
I want to be FREE!
