Shannon's Journal Discussion Volume 3

[DarthXedonias]

Catman,

I think what Shannon meant is your deep fears what prevented you from achieving DMSI goals.

Therefore if you execute DMSI, you will get the girls you want.

Hi Samba,

We'll see if that happens. Like I've said before, I'm so glad that I have nowhere near as much fixation on girls as long ago. This constant failure doesn't bother me nearly as much anymore. Chasing them and obsessing over them seems to have been such a massive waste of time for me. I'm much more worried about this crisis at my second company, fixing that, rather than continuing to chase girls for zero ROI. I do know I'm vastly less interested in pursuing anything anymore. Maybe that's some IDGAF outcome independence, or some kind of sense of futility, who knows.

It's your way of sabotaging DMSI.

@Shannon Its interesting that you mentioned this Shannon because it made me remember something I had thought about months ago but for some reason forgot to mention on here. I remember at one point I did wonder if me and Catman were using the same loophole to sabotage DMSI 3.2. I remember because I kept on using this IDGAF attitude to make the Aura not snipe anyone. I then after a while noticed that Catman was getting the same IDGAF attitude as well when he would post his updates. Only difference was I noticed at the time was that mine seemed to be very in my face and very "forceful". It was like my conscious mind felt "compelled" to say that every time I tried to see if I found a girl attracted. I even tried to even focus more on seeing a women I would see as attractive as actually attractive only to give up seconds later because all motivation would leave me.

I had wondered at the same time if Catman was experiencing similar due to similar attitude coming up? All I know was the attitude for me felt very "unnatural" or "artificial" in a way. On top of that I just felt very "flat" in attitude all the time or mechanical I guess.