09-26-2018, 06:28 AM
(09-26-2018, 06:14 AM)Greenduck Wrote:(07-08-2018, 11:38 PM)Djinnni Wrote:(07-06-2018, 12:36 AM)MasterEnki Wrote: @"Djinnni"
How’s it going?
Have you manifested her yet?
Still doing AYPSSL?
I’m still grinding away with my AYP (Friend With Benefits).
Keep going with AYP. Or better yet jump to DMSI 7 loops.
I stopped AYPSSL after 4 months straight.
During this time as mentioned above I got a lot of attention. One particular woman (M2) stood out in that she was touchy feely from the get go. We had a very comfortable, chatty vibe every time we met. It was turning into a connected lovey dovey vibe even though we hadn't had sex. I wasn't certain she was the perfect submissive. I'm still sure she was a pre-echo.
She has a slight hunchback which gives her a lot of pain. As a healer and a highly sensitive empath I got to feeling her pain in the exact location of my upper back as where the core of her back issue is.
I decided I didn't want to go through more of the intense back pain. It took me a couple of weeks to even release the pain energy I had picked up which was manifesting as pain within me.
I understand she was drawn to me for the deep healing she needed, so its all good. However as she was leaving one particular social gathering we hugged goodbye and she flashed a beam of love at me which I felt. Any guys who get to feel the heart love of a woman, I feel are truly lucky (or sorted). Plus she added more kino too and also a full on loving eye gaze.
So I messaged her later, going more direct and invited her to mine where we could do more eye gazing and touching. She waited to respond with a... 'Huh?'
My motivation was to go direct as she was getting more lovey and I didn't feel it was the full manifestation, plus I didn't want to experience the physical pain within which would take me in the opposite direction to the way I am going - more health, fitness, joy and bliss.
I thought by provoking a polarised response - either sex or repulsion I could achieve one of 2 outcomes - either sex or she is put off and creates space. She chose the space which is really what I wanted. The sex would've been a bonus but it would have added the complications mentioned. So its all good.
OAN I stopped AYPSSL and.... jumped ship..... for a bit, as finances have been my biggest challenge recently and have found a wealth sub and Alpha sub, both of which seem to be having an effect.
I had an epiphany one evening which meant I severely curtailed my visiting this forum. I am still an occasional lurker here and I am keeping a keen eye on DMSI developments, particularly @Kols journal (Energy-wise we have a lot of sensitivities in common I believe). I am looking forward to using 5.5G/6G tech.
So finances permitting I shall be getting on DMSI and BASE sometime in the not too distant future.
As always Good Vibes to all
Hi man,
Sounds like you got an energy vampire right there. Be careful, they are usually drawn to "empaths" - i.e. people with poor boundary skills. I recognize the issues from my past and would say that you need to work with healing yourself and finding your center. Look into E2 if DMSI doesn't feel right. You need to work on your lower 3 chakras (root, sacral and solar plexus). Start with root and work your way up. Cold showers are a great tool for working with those, and so are general physical exercise, martial arts (especially good if you feel a bit fearful about trying this out).
And don't get to sucked into the "I am an empath/healer" thing. It's usually just a cop-out from meeting the stronger you who can face your fears and create boundaries. But if you go on working on the lower 3 chakras you will know and recognize this yourself. I actually think that ASC is not that a bad option to help you open up your solar plexus, if you are generally grounded (but that can only you answer), otherwise it will not help you but become to much and you will have other problems on your hand.
Best of luck.
Seconding that "empath/healer" fixation - not the way to go. You could end up surrounded by people who do not really want to heal, nor do they actually want help - they just like being the center of attention and wasting your time.
By the by, Greenduck, I have a question regarding the cold shower thing - I used to practice them to boost my metabolism and cool off during summer, but never heard of their beneficial influence on the lower chakras - do you have any more info on that that you'd care to share?
"A man who is doing his True Will has the inertia of the Universe to assist him." - A. Crowley