09-22-2018, 05:00 PM
Shannon,
I need to share something which has happened repeatedly on E2, it happened again tonight, and I'm wondering how to understand what is happening.
In addition to running E2 at home on US non-stop, I've been occasionally having opportunity to run it on my phone while at work. However, each time I've run it at work, I've been very sensitive to men being caustic, dismissive, or manipulative. 2 days ago at work I'd run it, and at the end of the day, I felt hurt since my boss hadn't acknowledged me for helping him right before I left. I carried this home, began to write on my E2 thread, but scrapped it knowing I just sought to be validated.
Then, tonight I had E2 running in my pocket, and I played the money game me and 2 guy friends play, and near the end I disagreed with one of them about a rule interpretation. I fought more with emotions than logic, determined to be validated, again. I'm still emotional (angry and determined) now, an hour later.
I'm seeking to understand what's happening. I'll share my middle brother was closest to me, and he left home when I was 12 or 13. He'd also been a loud bully. Am I fighting people who act similarly to him, and is this healthy? I know I'm going towards AM6 after E2, but E2 (to my understanding) doesn't aid in assertiveness. It does in me asserting myself for healing purposes, but I'm emotional now, not feeling too objective.
May I ask for some feedback on this?
I'll share also I PM'd a past E2 user today who'd done E2 for six months before starting AM6. I'm wondering if a longer run (than 3 months) would be better before going on AM6.
Thank you for all the work you put in here.
I need to share something which has happened repeatedly on E2, it happened again tonight, and I'm wondering how to understand what is happening.
In addition to running E2 at home on US non-stop, I've been occasionally having opportunity to run it on my phone while at work. However, each time I've run it at work, I've been very sensitive to men being caustic, dismissive, or manipulative. 2 days ago at work I'd run it, and at the end of the day, I felt hurt since my boss hadn't acknowledged me for helping him right before I left. I carried this home, began to write on my E2 thread, but scrapped it knowing I just sought to be validated.
Then, tonight I had E2 running in my pocket, and I played the money game me and 2 guy friends play, and near the end I disagreed with one of them about a rule interpretation. I fought more with emotions than logic, determined to be validated, again. I'm still emotional (angry and determined) now, an hour later.
I'm seeking to understand what's happening. I'll share my middle brother was closest to me, and he left home when I was 12 or 13. He'd also been a loud bully. Am I fighting people who act similarly to him, and is this healthy? I know I'm going towards AM6 after E2, but E2 (to my understanding) doesn't aid in assertiveness. It does in me asserting myself for healing purposes, but I'm emotional now, not feeling too objective.
May I ask for some feedback on this?
I'll share also I PM'd a past E2 user today who'd done E2 for six months before starting AM6. I'm wondering if a longer run (than 3 months) would be better before going on AM6.
Thank you for all the work you put in here.
I want to be FREE!
