09-21-2018, 01:27 PM
I realize more about how the dynamic between my mother and I have been during my upbringing, as things start to return to "relative normal". I have been a care-taker for her, and I have also discussed this with my previous therapist. It's like she is a kid that can't take care of her own emotions. Would really be nice to have someone who can relate to this to discuss with. I always feel like I'm falling short when she is around. Like she have needs that I can't satisfy, not even in theory, because she don't even know what they are, she are just angry all the time. Dissapointed, angry and you get the feeling that things are not "just fine" as they should be when you are around her. She complicates everything, finds problems with everything, and it's just...impossible. Don't know what more to say than that. It sucks.
