09-18-2018, 02:44 AM
Been putting my job before my own emotional health which is not good. Some days I really struggle to get my work done and I've been beating myself up for that. But yesterday I decided I'm more important than this job. So that means if I have a few days where I'm not the most productive that's ok. I've had a lot of anxiety with this job because of the feeling of not always knowing how to solve something that comes up. And it's a unpredictable environment. But like I said I'm going to focus more on myself, treating myself better, being ok with whatever emotional turbulence I'm going through right now vs trying to bypass it to be "better". Being more compassionate to myself is very foreign for me, so I need to build it like a skill. I've been doing the exact opposite for years so negative attitudes towards myself seem to be on autopilot.
INFP
