Jake's UMOP - CLOSED!

[Jake2015]

I think you have made it very clear that your procrastination stems from fear, and your fear stems from educating yourself. Why are you afraid of educating yourself? Explore that.

Update & Reply to Shannon:

Update - Ive been waiting to speak to my sis about flights back to the UK, as I need to see my doc there so thats all been done now and then ill take laundry out and garbage etc.


Reply to Shannon -

Thank you Shannon.

Im not sure. When I think about it, I remember less vividly all the times I have done exceptionally well academically as a child (age 2-10) but remember the transition at age 11 I had at a new high school where I had to struggle to fit in with people, I didnt feel comfortable and academically I was being challenged alot.

At age 5-10 I was the top of my class, and of my school and I dont know why or how. I just excelled and had a competitive nature and got rewarded for this by the school at the annual prize evening they had at my school, every single year.

I remember at age maybe 13 putting in alot of effort, moving from position 21 to position 9 in my class of 30 students but getting little to no real recognition for it.

Beyond this I cant seem to understand why I fear studying.

By age 16 all I remember was wasting time more on porn or spending hours hoping to start studying but fighting myself, just staring at my textbooks, not being able to focus on the words and finding hours go by with nothing being done.

I dont know

I just hope either UMOP or H&C 6G or something else will help me overcome this fear and any other inner issues I have.