Shannon's Journal Discussion Volume 3

[mat422]

Hey Shannon. I know you're doing a ton of work plugging all these subconscious loopholes, but it does irritate me a bit at times. Not you, just myself. If I didn't have these subs, what would I be doing? How could I then hope to move past these deep subconscious fears? The whole thing just seems so inefficient. Consciously I want something and then my subconscious says nope. I've seen people live out these patterns in life and I just can't fathom how it's chalked up to what life is all about. I'm really looking forward to 3.3, but I'm also a little frustrated that I couldn't get 3.2 to work as well as I hoped for me. I just feel like I should have been strong enough or determined to get everything I needed on 3.2. I mean to me it seems more than enough tech wise, I just got in my own way all the time.

Just relax, Mat. You're doing a great job with executing. Your challenges are among the biggest of anyone here, and you're making positive progress regularly. That's all I can ask.

3.3 will be even better. But don't beat yourself up over this. Healing happens when you care for yourself, not punish yourself. You're doing just fine.

Thanks Shannon, I really needed to hear that. Things have been really looking up for me lately, but I definitely still put too much pressure on myself.