09-04-2018, 03:36 PM
Felt like a journaling a bit. I was at work today and realized I have this anxiety throughout the day. It's tied towards my capabilities in this job. It always feels like I don't really know anything and I'm just lucking out on everything. Taking on big projects gets me really anxious too. I've been more conscious of these reactions I'm having lately. Prior to this they kind of flew under the radar. I really was not feeling good today and I've realized this job has been causing me anxiety. But the solution isn't leaving the job. It's how I respond to everything. Anywhere I go it'll be the same thing, the problem lies inside of myself and not external factors.
Overall I've been more observant of how I feel about my life. I remain hopeful and I'm going to keep working towards stuff, but I also recognize I tried to stuff down a lot of stuff that needed attention. In a way I might have been trying to escape that by distracting myself with DMSI and trying to get attention from women.
Overall I've been more observant of how I feel about my life. I remain hopeful and I'm going to keep working towards stuff, but I also recognize I tried to stuff down a lot of stuff that needed attention. In a way I might have been trying to escape that by distracting myself with DMSI and trying to get attention from women.
INFP
