09-02-2018, 11:38 AM
Been thinking about going back to therapy or at least trying it again. I've been trying to "stop being afraid" for a lot of my life. It hasn't worked out so well. And the nature of me always being hard on myself didn't give me the chance to realize that what I struggle with isn't really the norm. I mean it always felt like it was normal and that other people face these challenges too but overcome them and I just didn't. But I look back on my life and there are consistent patterns of dysfunction that I'm 90% certain aren't a common thing among most people.
I'm mature enough now to realize that I don't have all the answers. No matter how insightful I can be at times I understand I hide things from myself. And there's only so much you can do on your own before you realize that outside perspective might be needed.
I should have done this a while ago. But it's only recently that I've felt ok with the idea of going back. Prior to this the idea of opening up to a complete stranger scared me so much that I didn't even consider it. For me at this point in my life I feel like maybe I just need someone to validate what I've been through and help me work through it all. Unfortunately, I don't think I'm at the point where I can do it for myself. I think that's probably been my biggest sticking point through the years, I'm not able to maintain that non-judgemental compassionate space in my own head.
I'm mature enough now to realize that I don't have all the answers. No matter how insightful I can be at times I understand I hide things from myself. And there's only so much you can do on your own before you realize that outside perspective might be needed.
I should have done this a while ago. But it's only recently that I've felt ok with the idea of going back. Prior to this the idea of opening up to a complete stranger scared me so much that I didn't even consider it. For me at this point in my life I feel like maybe I just need someone to validate what I've been through and help me work through it all. Unfortunately, I don't think I'm at the point where I can do it for myself. I think that's probably been my biggest sticking point through the years, I'm not able to maintain that non-judgemental compassionate space in my own head.
INFP
