08-29-2018, 04:30 PM
E2 or UD first? That's a good question. I'll give my opinion based on my experience.
I came here with my head filled with fear, confusion, tons of lying to myself, and oh yeah, I'll mention fear again. It ruled me.
Using E2 when I first came to IML helped me see that I could be freed from my fears, guilt, and shame if I was consistent using healing subs. Since E2 has a lot of basic emotional healing and training--plus the emotional shielding to not live in that inner hell remembering stuff--I'd use it first. E2 is easy peasy when I compare it to weekly therapy or counseling I've done. It's simply so damn easy facing my stuff hidden inside since it clears stuff I've been terrified of--oftentimes without me even knowing it was working on a deep root.
I likely would have not stayed on UD if I started with it. I was creating so many emotional emergencies when I came that without a training (found in E2) I might have jumped off it. And I'd have done it for logical, "reasonable" reasons. Because even in the description, UD paints a bit of a fantasy for someone living in emotional crisis day to day. Doing E2 for a few months allowed me to say "Holy S***! I feel better today! I could keep on doing this!" I wasn't nearly as emotionally dependent on others, I could relax more when alone, and I began having HOPE. And emotional crisis......why was I creating them? (That answer came to me while using UD. It was a larger root I needed to let go of.)
So, I'd recommend E2 first, then UD based on my background and experience. I'm doing E2 again currently, and my daily awarenesses of my thinking, attitudes, and beliefs are nearly everywhere I look. I did NOT see so much on my first run. And Shannon designed it like that so "when we are ready", bigger guns might come out.
I came here with my head filled with fear, confusion, tons of lying to myself, and oh yeah, I'll mention fear again. It ruled me.
Using E2 when I first came to IML helped me see that I could be freed from my fears, guilt, and shame if I was consistent using healing subs. Since E2 has a lot of basic emotional healing and training--plus the emotional shielding to not live in that inner hell remembering stuff--I'd use it first. E2 is easy peasy when I compare it to weekly therapy or counseling I've done. It's simply so damn easy facing my stuff hidden inside since it clears stuff I've been terrified of--oftentimes without me even knowing it was working on a deep root.
I likely would have not stayed on UD if I started with it. I was creating so many emotional emergencies when I came that without a training (found in E2) I might have jumped off it. And I'd have done it for logical, "reasonable" reasons. Because even in the description, UD paints a bit of a fantasy for someone living in emotional crisis day to day. Doing E2 for a few months allowed me to say "Holy S***! I feel better today! I could keep on doing this!" I wasn't nearly as emotionally dependent on others, I could relax more when alone, and I began having HOPE. And emotional crisis......why was I creating them? (That answer came to me while using UD. It was a larger root I needed to let go of.)
So, I'd recommend E2 first, then UD based on my background and experience. I'm doing E2 again currently, and my daily awarenesses of my thinking, attitudes, and beliefs are nearly everywhere I look. I did NOT see so much on my first run. And Shannon designed it like that so "when we are ready", bigger guns might come out.
I want to be FREE!
