08-27-2018, 03:59 PM
Thanks man, much appreciated.
In other news. Got another nasty migraine today and had to skip work. So bad I couldn't drive or function. Literally just woke up an hour ago.
During the whole episode I threw on some meditative stuff and just tried to unwind my body as much as possible. My body started spasming as it released endless amounts of tension. I was done today, I reached my tipping point for all the stuff that's been bothering me and it shut me down.
I don't think I'm processing dmsi all that well to be honest. I have a lot of trouble relaxing and my brain feels like it's on fire. I don't know if I'm pushing through things or if I'm just in a deadlock with deeper fears. I just know when I was out of it today and drifting in and out of consciousness I felt the influence of dmsi and the subsequent fear that shuts down my response to it like a steel bear trap. I can't catch it, analyze it, or whatever. It's a very instinctual response. I can feel my self on the verge of cooperating and then nothing.
In other news. Got another nasty migraine today and had to skip work. So bad I couldn't drive or function. Literally just woke up an hour ago.
During the whole episode I threw on some meditative stuff and just tried to unwind my body as much as possible. My body started spasming as it released endless amounts of tension. I was done today, I reached my tipping point for all the stuff that's been bothering me and it shut me down.
I don't think I'm processing dmsi all that well to be honest. I have a lot of trouble relaxing and my brain feels like it's on fire. I don't know if I'm pushing through things or if I'm just in a deadlock with deeper fears. I just know when I was out of it today and drifting in and out of consciousness I felt the influence of dmsi and the subsequent fear that shuts down my response to it like a steel bear trap. I can't catch it, analyze it, or whatever. It's a very instinctual response. I can feel my self on the verge of cooperating and then nothing.
INFP
