Shannon's Journal Discussion Volume 3

[Kol]

@Shannon

I seem to have some sort of memory loss going on. I can pass three days and not recall which day I started the next loop on multiple ocassions. My guess its because of the h/c and reality bending. Wanted to give you this feedback as it is kinda funny but also slightly hard to keep yrack on the 7 days on 1 day off and such.

That could not result from the reality bending. It has nothing to do with the healing and clearing. It sounds like a creative attempt to disrupt your proper use of the program by the subconscious to me.

Something similar is happening to me. I set an alarm for a little over an hour before I actually have to wake up, and I listen to my loop while I sleep until my second alarm hits. I had no issues for months under DMSI until some time before I switched to US/LM. Now maybe once a week I simply forget why I set my alarm or simply ignore it and quickly return to sleep. This happened this morning, so I listened to it later in the day. Last week I had to take my 1 day break a day early because I forgot to run it early and then wasn't motivated to run it later in the day.

I'm just giving you another thing to consider in case the keys do not do the trick. If this is some clever subconscious 'resistance' tactic, I'm definitely going to put some extra effort to get my loop in no matter what.

Getting my loops in isnt really the problem. I have difficulties to trace back the days. Lets say im on day 4 and started 4 days ago ( for example, starting monday, and 4 days passed ) on day 4 I start to think "was my first day monday? Was it Tuesday?" That kinda thing. Even if Im writing it down, there are days that I seem to care 0 at all to note it down. Akong with doubt, my mind seems to go into spiral. The ignoring part you wrote is something similar to being trance like in autopilot.