08-25-2018, 11:55 AM
(08-25-2018, 07:52 AM)Shannon Wrote:(08-24-2018, 09:42 AM)kingpill Wrote:(08-24-2018, 09:10 AM)Kol Wrote: This talk of death is really interesting. Couple of times on my 3.2 run I had it, only to "release" and fully "let it in". When im walking on the streets tho, there are times im feeling stiffled, and get in my head so to say. Its almost like night and dsy like my subc says "oh hell no" depending on the "danger levels" ny subc perceives as.
Point is, when this stiffledness passes, or meets a point of "collapse" im on a totally new level. Even to the point im wondering about immortality and being an otherworldly being.
Makes me wonder how far we can push this sub and bend reality.
"I dont wanna die" popped up just now. Neat.
I totally get you, I feel untouchable, like nobody can f**k with me and I can do anything.
This reminds me of another resistance and possible cause of it.
Parts of my subconscious can only fathom the 'men must hunt' scenario and nothing else. This has led me to see dreams which seems to be clear a few things but I don't think it has fully cleared by this version yet. Let me explain:
I had a dream that a group of people including myself were being hunted by 'normal society' special forces. Seemed we were 'different' in some way. We were all cornered and told to give ourselves up. Some gave up and went to join the 'normal' people. Others like myself didn't and started escaping. I was escaping by myself, when suddenly, I turned into a demon that could jump few hundred feet at a time. Though I was more powerful, I was now hunted even more vigorously than before.
What I interpreted:
Part of subconscious thinks that 'being hunted' can only mean 'danger'. It cannot fathom that someone pursuing me could lead to something good, and that if someone is pursuing me, it must mean they are trying to harm me.
In the beginning, as I started executing and being "hunted", that part of my subC sensed danger. In reality, the 'hunting for me' really is people finding me more attractive and so coming towards me.
The people who gave up and joined 'normal society' seems to me like the people who gave up on DMSI
Therefore I escaped to avoid execution. However, because I was still listening to DMSI while essentially 'running away' (feeling lethargic, using resistance tactics I mentioned in a previous post) I became more powerful (transformed into a demon) but this led to me being hunted more vigorously than before(girls liking me more), which in turn made me even more avoidant of the 'hunter'(getting even more lethargic, etc).
Parts of our subconscious (especially who live/ grew up in rougher neighbourhoods or people grew up being bullied/still getting bullied etc), I believe, would take any form of being hunted as a sense of danger.
I hope this helps.
You are framing the process as "hunting or being hunted". That's artificially limited thinking. It isn't hunting or being hunted, it's being so attractive that others want you in a desirable way, and they come to you, offer themselves to you and attempt to interest you in having sex with them. Where is the threat in that?
Framing is everything. You guys don't have to equate everything with violence, dominance and threat.
Yeah, looking back, I see it.
I am that I am, I will be what I will be.
I am grateful for all that I have. I am humble as I revel in the wonders of power