So it's my break from DMSI tonight. I woke up this morning feeling really down. Have to clean my place and have no motivation to do it. Thinking about my job and just feeling stuck. Feeling stuck all around. Deep down I'm just incredibly dissatisfied with my whole life. I can't hide it or ignore it anymore. There's a feeling when I sit in stillness that tells me "you're not happy doing any of this". But then the other thoughts come in "What the hell else can I do? I need money, I need to survive."
This morning I even found myself thinking about quitting DMSI and just trying out subliminals from a different company. The thought that maybe a different scripting style would work better for me. Or that someone figured out how to make them better than Shannon.
A lot of unknowns here and that's what bothers me. I don't know if I should go back to A, stay on B, try something else, I don't know. I feel like shit on B, so I feel like I might as well use A to clear up all that stuff that comes up. But is it an escape tactic from my subconscious? I think this is the longest I've been on B.
Shannon if you happen to read this I could use some guidance because I'm kind of lost at the moment. Even if I execute on B, it just feels like I still have some self worth issues and I'd rather fix those than use attention from women as some sort of bandaid for making myself feel better. Which is what I think I've been trying to do. If B can overcome those issues I'll stay on B, but if it can't I'll have to move back to A because my own mental health is more important than being attractive to women.
If anyone wants to advise me on what to do I'd appreciate it. I can't trust my own mind these days unfortunately. The main problem I'm seeing among everyone on this forum is we all seem to be in the same place with regards to figuring out how to execute DMSI.
This morning I even found myself thinking about quitting DMSI and just trying out subliminals from a different company. The thought that maybe a different scripting style would work better for me. Or that someone figured out how to make them better than Shannon.
A lot of unknowns here and that's what bothers me. I don't know if I should go back to A, stay on B, try something else, I don't know. I feel like shit on B, so I feel like I might as well use A to clear up all that stuff that comes up. But is it an escape tactic from my subconscious? I think this is the longest I've been on B.
Shannon if you happen to read this I could use some guidance because I'm kind of lost at the moment. Even if I execute on B, it just feels like I still have some self worth issues and I'd rather fix those than use attention from women as some sort of bandaid for making myself feel better. Which is what I think I've been trying to do. If B can overcome those issues I'll stay on B, but if it can't I'll have to move back to A because my own mental health is more important than being attractive to women.
If anyone wants to advise me on what to do I'd appreciate it. I can't trust my own mind these days unfortunately. The main problem I'm seeing among everyone on this forum is we all seem to be in the same place with regards to figuring out how to execute DMSI.
INFP
