08-17-2018, 12:31 AM
(08-16-2018, 01:33 PM)DarkPlouf Wrote: I hear you CatMan, and I understand you. Past a point, I've become tired and fed up with that situation.
But for me, I've also this fear of getting hurt. Because the last time I got involved with a girl I destroyed myself. Still, to this day I consider it the greatest error of my life. Life took something from me past that point and I stopped feeling wholesome.
Also, ain't done healed yet. Crazy.
I'm half happy and half sad about this situation. Because trough that experience I've learned to behave myself. I mean there's no way after that stuff I'd still play Mr Nice Guy. Like hell I'd care again about women as much as I did back then.
Now I'm more into the "Eh, whatever" side of things. The last time I tried to date was...when? Last year maybe. It looks like I've redirected my emotional attachment elsewhere because I've been genuinely interested in connecting with people now. Having fun with genuine no BS people I can relate with. It seems like I'm filling my emotional health quota that way.
Kudo to my brain for finding that escape IMO. That seems way healthier than chasing pussies again.
Wouldn't that be great if we could redirect emotional fulfillment to...let's say, eating donuts? Man, at least that's easier to get :p.
So yeah, well, I kinda share that same IDGAF feeling. I still don't know if that's a good thing or not. On one hand, I stopped depending so heavily on something unattainable, but on another hand that sounds like giving up, right? But I'm definitely happier now so maybe that was the right choice.
About DMSI I believe it can achieve its goal for some people and thanks to maybe some crazy synchronicities. That can happen. It has manifestations modules after all. Well, for being a LOA guy it's more believable to me.
However, what I do not think can really happen, is DMSI totally and deeply transforming someone into an irresistible sexual being. With all the corresponding components (attitude, looks, social circle, ect). Idk why but it's more believable to me to manifest women at certain points in time rather than being fully transformed.
Maybe because from my experience, all attempt to alter my personality traits resulted in shallow results. Even from DMSI the new traits where shallow. Feeling good while listening to the sub and then step out and feel like shit :x.
Even on the physical side. Hit the gym, and eat like a pig to hopefully put some weight, work the hell out of me for 2 months, put on 1 Kg, get a flu the next week, and lose everything. :]
Well anyway, I think we'll find a way somehow. There's always a way, the problem is just hanging on until then.
I've drastically dropped my expectation in the women department since last year and my goal now seems reachable to me, especially in just a few years. That's not at the same level of being a sexy mofo banging hundreds of chicks a month, but past a point this goal has been futile to me. So I'm settling for less.
I feel for both of you. A few years ago I was looking for a girlfriend to hold hands with have fun conversations, go for walk in the park. I guess I craved intimacy I realized this seem to push women away as I use to become needy.
Then one day a friend of mine sat me down and said "Thor listen 95% of women are the same there is no such thing as an ideal girlfriend" I remember hearing the story of the frog and the scorpion. The scorpion stings not because its evil or bad but because its in its nature.
Women are the same its the way they are wired. It took me along while to get to grips with this. All that fucking indoctrinations my mother and father had given me had given me a set of false ideals. All they cared about is getting me married so they could tell the world how one day they will have grand kids and how their son is married and has a great job.
They never cared about my happiness. They groomed me for their own selfish desires to make themselves happy. Each day I was told I was worthless when I never did what they asked. Luckily I made the right moves and distanced myself from them to start a new life.
My recent experiences have made me realize that the only reason I would ever want to get married is if I wanted children. Other then that there is no reason to get married.
Better to have a girl or girls you can fuck have fun with. When they start moaning call a taxi and send them home. At this age I want zero drama in my life.
