08-06-2018, 08:32 AM
B side is doing it's thing. Nothing major to report yet, but I just feel like my subconscious has been forced to start executing. Right now it's either stop listening to dmsi, which I won't do, or start executing. That middle option, the one where I focus on healing is gone. So these past two days have been kind of turbulent as my subconscious has finally realized that there's only one direction we are going now. Every time I notice fear about moving forward I just push myself more consciously to keep going. This is very different than A where I'd pay too much attention to the fear and my subconscious would give in to it.
It is a lot more rough than A but the growing discomfort and fear just indicates I'm closer to executing. Now every time I feel panicky or hopeless I see it as moving closer to my goals. As ridiculous as those fears are, I've accepted for now that the only way I'll grow is by powering through them. Overall I've been unsuccessful in my attempts to persuade my subconscious that there's nothing to be afraid of. I tried, but it just wouldn't respond to that approach so now we're just bulldozing through it instead.
It is a lot more rough than A but the growing discomfort and fear just indicates I'm closer to executing. Now every time I feel panicky or hopeless I see it as moving closer to my goals. As ridiculous as those fears are, I've accepted for now that the only way I'll grow is by powering through them. Overall I've been unsuccessful in my attempts to persuade my subconscious that there's nothing to be afraid of. I tried, but it just wouldn't respond to that approach so now we're just bulldozing through it instead.
INFP
