Day 3:
I felt not respected few times...
This has trigger anger. I wanted to shout: Hey, what do you think that you are doing?
but I have restrained myself from doing so and the anger went away.
One occurence of these events have been performed by some alpha guy at the gym... maybe this is in reaction to my behavior change and he tries to keep his status by attempting to impose his dominance over me... (Actually, now that I think about it, this guy did did this type of annoying small gestures on few occasions already...)
During my grocery, I did notice more the women...
Also during the whole day, I felt tired. Might be the party yesterday. I was under the impression that I have been reasonable by taking only 3 drinks during the whole evening. I went to bed at 2AM...
I do not think that my lack of energy comes from the program listening
My conversation pattern is changing. At the gym, when I spoke with one of my female friend, I did ask her if she had plans for the weekend... (Seeking logistic? creating opportunities?) That was totally spontaneous question out of nowhere...
She replied that she had a BBQ party at her uncle's place.
This reply did spark a memory that I did share with her...
I was at such a party and we were playing volleyball in the pool and there was a lot of women. I think that another guy and me were the only 2 men. At some point, I had to jump out of the water except that my swimsuit did remain in the water. And this has created some surprise among the game spectators... A lot of women jaws dropped and I got a VIP treatment from few of them after the game...
Funny anecdote... and she had to imagine me duck naked as I am telling the story... Kinda naughty story... she did like it...
I felt not respected few times...
This has trigger anger. I wanted to shout: Hey, what do you think that you are doing?
but I have restrained myself from doing so and the anger went away.
One occurence of these events have been performed by some alpha guy at the gym... maybe this is in reaction to my behavior change and he tries to keep his status by attempting to impose his dominance over me... (Actually, now that I think about it, this guy did did this type of annoying small gestures on few occasions already...)
During my grocery, I did notice more the women...
Also during the whole day, I felt tired. Might be the party yesterday. I was under the impression that I have been reasonable by taking only 3 drinks during the whole evening. I went to bed at 2AM...
I do not think that my lack of energy comes from the program listening
My conversation pattern is changing. At the gym, when I spoke with one of my female friend, I did ask her if she had plans for the weekend... (Seeking logistic? creating opportunities?) That was totally spontaneous question out of nowhere...
She replied that she had a BBQ party at her uncle's place.
This reply did spark a memory that I did share with her...
I was at such a party and we were playing volleyball in the pool and there was a lot of women. I think that another guy and me were the only 2 men. At some point, I had to jump out of the water except that my swimsuit did remain in the water. And this has created some surprise among the game spectators... A lot of women jaws dropped and I got a VIP treatment from few of them after the game...
Funny anecdote... and she had to imagine me duck naked as I am telling the story... Kinda naughty story... she did like it...
