Agression, tension....
Reading an old SM3 journal in which Shannon lays down IOI descriptions and I am feeling hostile even looking at them. Its like alternating between aztec/mayan king and pissed off at anything IOI and in the process of uncovering something that was deep burried in my subc and is now surfacing
Like now my subconscious ( looked inward ) is truly magnificent. Women approaching, offering themselves to me, engaging in sex, naked, orgies, huge green hills, deep clear water and high value gold, lesbian sex and lustfull indulgences open world style. Pure lust, sex, passion. Even the fucking birds are banging.
High loops pay off it seems. My attention is instant. Where I focus on directly attracts and manifests including rule4 stuff.
Its like a crashing river ( DMSI ) hammering through.
Also, I seem to grow in realisation that I have to do absolutely nothing to have women at all, and have seks with me, like I dont even care and theyre still attracted. whatever it is, I keep running high loops from now on.
Edit: not gonna lie, im scared, and somewhat sad, I dont know why tho, but know im going through it now and its something that was present but so Obvious now. Im not gonna label it until it is clear to me. had thoughts of fear of succes today ( which seems to be a huge deal actually?! ) and am growing more masculine by the minute.. Also, today, I was aware how im pushing away, like some invisible force field. its doing my head in, confused and sad.
Reading an old SM3 journal in which Shannon lays down IOI descriptions and I am feeling hostile even looking at them. Its like alternating between aztec/mayan king and pissed off at anything IOI and in the process of uncovering something that was deep burried in my subc and is now surfacing
Like now my subconscious ( looked inward ) is truly magnificent. Women approaching, offering themselves to me, engaging in sex, naked, orgies, huge green hills, deep clear water and high value gold, lesbian sex and lustfull indulgences open world style. Pure lust, sex, passion. Even the fucking birds are banging.
High loops pay off it seems. My attention is instant. Where I focus on directly attracts and manifests including rule4 stuff.
Its like a crashing river ( DMSI ) hammering through.
Also, I seem to grow in realisation that I have to do absolutely nothing to have women at all, and have seks with me, like I dont even care and theyre still attracted. whatever it is, I keep running high loops from now on.
Edit: not gonna lie, im scared, and somewhat sad, I dont know why tho, but know im going through it now and its something that was present but so Obvious now. Im not gonna label it until it is clear to me. had thoughts of fear of succes today ( which seems to be a huge deal actually?! ) and am growing more masculine by the minute.. Also, today, I was aware how im pushing away, like some invisible force field. its doing my head in, confused and sad.
The trials you encounter will introduce you to your strengths. - epictetus
