07-27-2018, 08:26 AM
Chatting with a new girl on tinder. She's a singer and she's also into electronic music. Even knew what an mpc was so I was impressed lol. Trying to keep it fun with no expectations of what happens. It feels better that way, just letting stuff unfold without any pressure. In general though I hate text conversations, feels like it's hard to reach that flow state. Gonna see if she wants to go hiking one of these days and I'll get to know her better.
Not gonna lie I still have that fear that she'll get tired of me and cut me off. I've had it happen in the past a lot and I accept full responsibility for it. Mostly because I'm always too far in my head trying to figure out the right stuff to say instead of just being in the moment. But it's definitely a big step for me. A couple months ago I would match with someone then wait for them to message me because I was too afraid. But I'd make the excuse that dmsi should be doing everything and never get a chance with them. But I messaged this girl just to see what would happen and because I felt it would be an enjoyable experience. So I'm definitely focusing more on just having some fun and not taking it all so serious.
Not gonna lie I still have that fear that she'll get tired of me and cut me off. I've had it happen in the past a lot and I accept full responsibility for it. Mostly because I'm always too far in my head trying to figure out the right stuff to say instead of just being in the moment. But it's definitely a big step for me. A couple months ago I would match with someone then wait for them to message me because I was too afraid. But I'd make the excuse that dmsi should be doing everything and never get a chance with them. But I messaged this girl just to see what would happen and because I felt it would be an enjoyable experience. So I'm definitely focusing more on just having some fun and not taking it all so serious.
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