To not pollute Shannons feedback journal Im writing it down here.
Im having many fears coming up. One is the boundaries of me. Im hypervigilant on my thoughts at this point. Setting boundaries, tho at AM6, is revisited. Im not caring about women at this point, tho I have women seduce me even more obvious. One fear, which lead to more fears, is boundaries are set in an "high guard or else" out of fear Im selling myself due being brought up in an shitty way of mind. As a kid I was taught that, when being picked on, you need to let it go in one ear, let it out the other. Kids are still in developing stage, griwing up and oistening to dad ( atleast I did, correct me if Im wrong ) They havent developed logic. Their personality is still forming. Thats why, when enough trauma ( before age 7 ) their mind can fracture due trauma.
Anyways, im still experiencing this void inside. Many traits such as glib, charm, charisma, manipulation are merely met at an mental level. Almost non heart, but rather having no connection to it. Devoid of empathy nor care, only applying it without any empathic awareness to it. It just is usable like everything including rage
So thats that. Im sure there is some mechanisms/patterns going on behind it. In a way im thinking about embracing it. Like, no selling out, but owning it ( inner kid?) Or its an obsession going on and just move on about it.
It does also cause some pondering about being alpha. Not being toyed anymore, having no care in losing people, discarding people..in an sense it feels highly masculine.
Anyways, to the seduction part...
I cant really explain it ( ofcourse im running DMSI ) im causing women to feel things no matter what im dealing with. Ghosting doesnt matter. ( what?...) it by mere existing in MSI. its great. Im like a superstar/rockstar. Like in my earlier post about that golden boy aura. Its being a gravitational blackhole of sex.
Im being approached by several women today. Held a convo with one for half an hour at work, light, but she started to caress my arm. Another woman kept rambling about her bike. Older lady.
Girl at the checkout started re-adjusting herself.
When getting some fish, I had some small flirting time with the girl behind the counter. I noticed her attraction. Like I look at them, they lock back and fall in attraction. It state shifts me effortlessly.
Also, listening to an podcast of Arash now ( the real art of winning friends and influence people )
It skyrockets my understanding. Good for my mind.
Im having many fears coming up. One is the boundaries of me. Im hypervigilant on my thoughts at this point. Setting boundaries, tho at AM6, is revisited. Im not caring about women at this point, tho I have women seduce me even more obvious. One fear, which lead to more fears, is boundaries are set in an "high guard or else" out of fear Im selling myself due being brought up in an shitty way of mind. As a kid I was taught that, when being picked on, you need to let it go in one ear, let it out the other. Kids are still in developing stage, griwing up and oistening to dad ( atleast I did, correct me if Im wrong ) They havent developed logic. Their personality is still forming. Thats why, when enough trauma ( before age 7 ) their mind can fracture due trauma.
Anyways, im still experiencing this void inside. Many traits such as glib, charm, charisma, manipulation are merely met at an mental level. Almost non heart, but rather having no connection to it. Devoid of empathy nor care, only applying it without any empathic awareness to it. It just is usable like everything including rage
So thats that. Im sure there is some mechanisms/patterns going on behind it. In a way im thinking about embracing it. Like, no selling out, but owning it ( inner kid?) Or its an obsession going on and just move on about it.
It does also cause some pondering about being alpha. Not being toyed anymore, having no care in losing people, discarding people..in an sense it feels highly masculine.
Anyways, to the seduction part...
I cant really explain it ( ofcourse im running DMSI ) im causing women to feel things no matter what im dealing with. Ghosting doesnt matter. ( what?...) it by mere existing in MSI. its great. Im like a superstar/rockstar. Like in my earlier post about that golden boy aura. Its being a gravitational blackhole of sex.
Im being approached by several women today. Held a convo with one for half an hour at work, light, but she started to caress my arm. Another woman kept rambling about her bike. Older lady.
Girl at the checkout started re-adjusting herself.
When getting some fish, I had some small flirting time with the girl behind the counter. I noticed her attraction. Like I look at them, they lock back and fall in attraction. It state shifts me effortlessly.
Also, listening to an podcast of Arash now ( the real art of winning friends and influence people )
It skyrockets my understanding. Good for my mind.
The trials you encounter will introduce you to your strengths. - epictetus
