I have ended the relationship with my psychologist. I did so because I felt insecure when leaving her office, and realized that she was unable to help me with that I needed. I need someone who can help me to rebuild my "world", the way I look at things, people, etc. But she just wanted me to confirm her world-view, and also her view of me. So, that was really not what I needed, so terminate without regret. Got a couple of names of people I will look into.
On another note, I had some kind of anger release today, sitting in my car just screaming, it felt good, haha, I needed it. Went to the gym and took out some anger.
Don't really know what more to write, more than that I am fucking tired of not feeling really like myself, and really fucking tired of feeling insecure. I know I will get over it, but I'm just freaking tired of it. And I want to have someone in my life to support me. Right now I don't feel that I have someone like that. My dad is getting old and feel a bit lost, and that is bugging be down...and my mom, she is my mom, can't really help other people, as she mostly focus on her own issues, complain, etc.
Whatever. going to a weekend out in the nature with some friends tomorrow, let's see how the weekend unfold. I know that I have friends who maybe can support me, but I don't really know how to ask for it without feeling needy.
PS. I am feeling better, don't get me wrong, it's getting better and better, even if it's still pretty sucky.
On another note, I had some kind of anger release today, sitting in my car just screaming, it felt good, haha, I needed it. Went to the gym and took out some anger.
Don't really know what more to write, more than that I am fucking tired of not feeling really like myself, and really fucking tired of feeling insecure. I know I will get over it, but I'm just freaking tired of it. And I want to have someone in my life to support me. Right now I don't feel that I have someone like that. My dad is getting old and feel a bit lost, and that is bugging be down...and my mom, she is my mom, can't really help other people, as she mostly focus on her own issues, complain, etc.
Whatever. going to a weekend out in the nature with some friends tomorrow, let's see how the weekend unfold. I know that I have friends who maybe can support me, but I don't really know how to ask for it without feeling needy.
PS. I am feeling better, don't get me wrong, it's getting better and better, even if it's still pretty sucky.
