Jakes DMSI 3.2B - *Closed!*

[Jake2015]

I'm disappointed, Jake. You find excuses not to for the first two days you were supposed to, then choose to masturbate the first time out and try to blame it on the sub, and then you immediately find excuses to lower your loop count. I thought you were more interested in achieving the goals than that. Apparently you really don't want to achieve the goals, because this basically says that the moment you are faced with what would actually make progress, you pussy out.

Im not entirely sure what you mean. The excuses were genuine reasons for not being able to listen to the required 7loops that I want to.

Having travelled back to the UK, I will listen nightly but whether that is 7 loops or less i cannot control due to the lifestyle I have here.

When I am back in Europe then I hopefully can have a more disciplined and capable experience of 3.2 but I can only hope that what I do listen to during this vacation time is sufficient to make an impression on my subC to execute.

Yes in regards to masturbation, it occurred however when I had listened to 1 loop, I couldnt. I simply was unable to yet now I was able to without any stress. I have done nothing different then or now except listen to more loops through a mobile phone rather than through speakers.

I havent pussied out though, I have began listening but im realistic in understanding that I can only listen this way due to my lifestyle here and without the desire to influence other members of my family with 3.2. I also cannot agree that masturbation is me pussying out, since the desire and action to masturbate now was stronger than the 1 loop and this I cannot explain hence my disappointment.

I still however am holding faith that this is simply the initial stage of listening to 7 loops and that in time, perhaps in 30days time I will begin to see better execution as our friend Thor from Asgard seems to be having.

I am trying my friend.

I also should add that masturbating here at my family home in the UK is superbly more difficult than masturbating at my university apartment over in Europe where I live alone. Yet there I did not masturbate and the execution of the no-fap was effortless so why I have masturbated from 7 loops makes little sense to me but it is what it is for now.