06-29-2018, 05:23 PM
I had an unusual thing happen this morning. I stopped to pick up a snack at my corner gas station before work (just after 5AM), and part of me is curious how my aura has increased doing 7 loops. Usually there are 2 or 3 women or girls on duty, as it's a busy place.
I saw one woman who I'd smiled at recently since she seems to look out for the younger ones; I found that attractive since she's open about it and is confident as well.
Well, when I walked in, I went straight for what I came in for--a candy bar. The woman I spoke of said something loudly to a younger cashier, and it sticks with me. She said "(name?), you look really good this morning!" Being that is was only 5AM, I did not come in feeling too social, but I did look to see who she was talking to. It was a younger blond trying to stock some stuff behind the counter. Nothing came of that, I got my stuff and left, but I'm still flattered. Looking back, I wonder "did she do that for me?"
I've literally never had that happen. I'm kind of bummed, looking back, that I didn't do more in the situation. However, on a positive note, I'm seeing myself dismissing other "gifts" thrown my way. The positive is that I've never noticed this or cared that I missed it in the first place. A is scraping away my ignorance of these situations, and I'm humbled I was actually shown this.
No kidding, I'm still thinking "really? Nah..." But it happened. I'm used to thinking small of myself, but I think I had the celebrity effect going on. That along with some SE, and I'm feeling pretty grateful I'm using DMSI.
It seems DMSI is ramping up my sexual attraction towards women in general too, meaning I'm noticing and looking for women more. Most of my adult life I've diminished my attractions regularly, and I thought "that's just how it'll be", which just continued the cycle. I'm waking up though, and I'm seeing women left and right. Women are noticing me too. SE and the other subs in DMSI are having me feel good and not bad about my attractions, so (I've said it again and again) this is new to me. And really encouraging.
I saw one woman who I'd smiled at recently since she seems to look out for the younger ones; I found that attractive since she's open about it and is confident as well.
Well, when I walked in, I went straight for what I came in for--a candy bar. The woman I spoke of said something loudly to a younger cashier, and it sticks with me. She said "(name?), you look really good this morning!" Being that is was only 5AM, I did not come in feeling too social, but I did look to see who she was talking to. It was a younger blond trying to stock some stuff behind the counter. Nothing came of that, I got my stuff and left, but I'm still flattered. Looking back, I wonder "did she do that for me?"
I've literally never had that happen. I'm kind of bummed, looking back, that I didn't do more in the situation. However, on a positive note, I'm seeing myself dismissing other "gifts" thrown my way. The positive is that I've never noticed this or cared that I missed it in the first place. A is scraping away my ignorance of these situations, and I'm humbled I was actually shown this.
No kidding, I'm still thinking "really? Nah..." But it happened. I'm used to thinking small of myself, but I think I had the celebrity effect going on. That along with some SE, and I'm feeling pretty grateful I'm using DMSI.
It seems DMSI is ramping up my sexual attraction towards women in general too, meaning I'm noticing and looking for women more. Most of my adult life I've diminished my attractions regularly, and I thought "that's just how it'll be", which just continued the cycle. I'm waking up though, and I'm seeing women left and right. Women are noticing me too. SE and the other subs in DMSI are having me feel good and not bad about my attractions, so (I've said it again and again) this is new to me. And really encouraging.
I want to be FREE!
