06-28-2018, 03:31 PM
A is working on me, and it's positive. I've felt insecure a bit around male coworkers since I've been childishly dependent on them, but today I felt a shift.
I worked with the combat veteran again, and early on, I felt that insecurity. But that feeling was right along a secure feeling, knowing I didn't need them like I'd been fearfully thinking (for months). It also wasn't a fear-based rejection or reaction. I just did not feel so "in need" of someone giving me some security. It came from within. I felt like I could actually believe in myself........which was a pleasant relief
This was BIG. I even wondered about staying on A longer. But probably not. B has its own drive, plus I've read there's still stuff clearing on B. I'll just keep on my A/B schedule.
Girl related: I did try to talk to a cashier when I got gas. She was in her routine, giving short responses, since people were behind me. And wow, I didn't take it personally. I wasn't in need of some validation, so I moved on mentally and emotionally, quite happy there were other women in the world. This is fun
I worked with the combat veteran again, and early on, I felt that insecurity. But that feeling was right along a secure feeling, knowing I didn't need them like I'd been fearfully thinking (for months). It also wasn't a fear-based rejection or reaction. I just did not feel so "in need" of someone giving me some security. It came from within. I felt like I could actually believe in myself........which was a pleasant relief
This was BIG. I even wondered about staying on A longer. But probably not. B has its own drive, plus I've read there's still stuff clearing on B. I'll just keep on my A/B schedule.
Girl related: I did try to talk to a cashier when I got gas. She was in her routine, giving short responses, since people were behind me. And wow, I didn't take it personally. I wasn't in need of some validation, so I moved on mentally and emotionally, quite happy there were other women in the world. This is fun
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