06-27-2018, 02:56 PM
I'm getting there. Slowly but surely. Today about half my day I found myself in the familiar sensations of resistance. But then towards the later half of the day I felt like I started tapping into what needs to be healed more.
But what's interesting is how this healing feels. It's not the usual stuff where I get upset, angry, sad, or any other range of emotions. It's very physical, with specific locations on my body. The solar plexus, my throat, and my chest. It feels like each of these areas is being addressed in a purely physical manner to diminish the effects of anxiety and sympathetic nervous system responses. I've left the realm of the incessant mind chatter that tends to spawn from those sensations and it feels like I've moved to addressing them directly.
Thinking about it more, fear is such a strong factor in all of this. Just getting to the point where you're able to accept new beliefs is dependent on your immediate reaction to them. Fear is like a flag for me that makes me avoid whatever I've been exposed to. In order to be more receptive to the new mindset I'm cultivating, I have to first remove my fear based reaction to it. And since fear is nothing more than a physical manifestation of the nervous system it makes sense that at least some part of my subconscious mind would have the ability to directly minimize the impact of fear. I think this is where I've been hitting a wall. The non-stop programming running in my head that kept my body in a fight or flight state so it just outright started refusing everything.
But what's interesting is how this healing feels. It's not the usual stuff where I get upset, angry, sad, or any other range of emotions. It's very physical, with specific locations on my body. The solar plexus, my throat, and my chest. It feels like each of these areas is being addressed in a purely physical manner to diminish the effects of anxiety and sympathetic nervous system responses. I've left the realm of the incessant mind chatter that tends to spawn from those sensations and it feels like I've moved to addressing them directly.
Thinking about it more, fear is such a strong factor in all of this. Just getting to the point where you're able to accept new beliefs is dependent on your immediate reaction to them. Fear is like a flag for me that makes me avoid whatever I've been exposed to. In order to be more receptive to the new mindset I'm cultivating, I have to first remove my fear based reaction to it. And since fear is nothing more than a physical manifestation of the nervous system it makes sense that at least some part of my subconscious mind would have the ability to directly minimize the impact of fear. I think this is where I've been hitting a wall. The non-stop programming running in my head that kept my body in a fight or flight state so it just outright started refusing everything.
INFP
